The girl who swore against love

A new beginning

     I've always thought about life like a novel, everyone being the main character of their own story. In your life, everything revolves around you, and it's up to you to make it what you want it to be.
     Often, when people are asked what's important in their life, they respond with "family", "friends", or "my boyfriend" and "my girlfriend". But I always thought, the things that are important in MY life were the things that made me happy. Things like reading, writing, drawing, exploring, taking walks, animals, my life long dream of becoming a veterinarian...
     Of course this didn't mean I didn't love my family and friends. I appreciated my family, what they do for me and that I have them to come home to. I absolutely adore my friends, and would probably give my life for them at this point. But, when I thought of my life, I didn't like to think of others... maybe because I knew, people are possible to lose.
     When I was in middle school, like lots of kids, I made mistakes when it came to friendships and boys. I lost many people that I cared about, all to get the attention of a stupid boy that didn't even like me in the end. After that, I realized I didn't need boys or relationships. They only wasted my time and caused unbelievable heartache.
     I'd seen it happen over and over to all my friends. As far as I was concerned, boys were only distractions from what was really important in your life, but some of my friends thought otherwise. Many of my friends were obsessed over the idea of finding love and having a boyfriend to kiss and cuddle with. I tried my hardest to make them realize how great they were as their own person, and that they didn't need a boyfriend to be happy, but these girls would not give up the idea that a boyfriend was something that was absolutely necessary for happiness.
     After a long time of frustration and confusion I gave up reasoning with them, figuring they would someday learn to focus on themselves, and their life, as I had. I hoped it would be soon because I think high school is a very important time in your life to find who you are, what you love, and what you want to do with your life.
     What I didn't know when I took the first steps through those high school doors, is that I had no idea what I was going to end up getting myself into. I was definitely not prepared for the things I would soon have to face and deal with. But I'm getting ahead of myself.. Let me tell you how it happened from the very beginning...