control → alec lightwood au | on hold

chapter 4.

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"i can't control myself around you."

holly's pov;

"and this is where we train," alec said, letting go of my hand as he went to pick up a sword. i looked around in awe, "this is so cool," i said, a big smile on my face. "can i try?" i asked, eagerness exploding throughout my body.

alec laughed at me, "err.. i don't think that's such a good idea."

i frowned at alec, "c'mon alec... please," i begged. "i'll be careful, i promise. besides," i said, walking up to him, "you'll be here in case something happens," i winked.

he rolled his eyes, picking up another sword and about to hand it to me before pulling it back, "be careful," he said, a stern expression on his face.

i nodded, a smile breaking across my face. "alright," i said, holding out my hand as he placed the large sword in my palm.

i gripped it tightly in my hand, zoning out a bit, i didn't really notice alec watching me with curiosity.

the sword felt so right in my hand, like it belonged to me. i raised a eyebrow as i felt something shift, and with pure ease i swung the sword, not really knowing what i was doing as i was putting all of my focus on the movements of the sword.

after a minute, i stopped as i felt out of breath but still like i was in control.

i looked up towards alec, his expression one of shock. "what?" i asked, raising a eyebrow at him. "nothing.. just.. i think we're done with the swords today."

i frowned but nodded, "alright," i said, handing the sword back to him. "maybe we can play with them tomorrow?" i smiled, a giggle escaping me.

alec placed the swords back on the shelves, turning towards me with a serious expression on his face. "we don't play with swords holly, they aren't toys," he said, his eyebrows furrowing.

i bit my lip, nodding. "c'mon, i'm sure you want to get outta them clothes already," alec stated, walking away from me.

as i was following him, i saw a girl with bright red hair. she smiled at me, giving me a thumbs up.

i looked at her with a confused expression and continued following alec as we went through different corridors. i wonder who she was..

we came to a stop in front of a brown, wooden door. he looked down at me, nervousness showing on his face.

why was he nervous?

as he opened the door, i saw a large bed covered in dark blue silk blankets and pillowcases. i looked up at alec, and saw he was already watching me.

i looked into his eyes and then stared at his lips for a moment, "may i?" i asked, gesturing to the room.

he laughed softly, "yeah, of course."

i smiled, walking inside and looking around. there wasn't much, just a large king sized bed, a closet, a desk with little things on it, and a small mini table next to his bed with a picture of him and that girl izzy. the room was painted a dark blue as well, with the floor being hard wooden floors.

i turned towards alec, noticing him watching me while still standing in the doorway, leaning against the side with his legs and arms crossed.

"this is my room," he said, walking in and shutting the door behind him. "i never.." he started, clearing his throat. "i never had a girl come in here before. not even my sister, i guess you can say this is like my own private place," he laughed.

i giggled at him, "it's nice in here," i said, backing up towards the bed as i felt the back of my knees hit the soft silk sheets.

i saw alec continue watching me and i could do nothing but swallow nervously. "you're staring again," i whispered, tearing my eyes from him and looking at the floor.

i was too intense with watching the floor, not even realizing alec was directly in front of me now. i looked up, a gasp escaping my lips. he leaned down, his lips barely an inch away from mine. my eyes grew heavy, the pit of my stomach having a strange, yet familiar feeling.

"i can't control myself around you," he whispered, his hand reaching up and lightly brushing my cheek. "i never felt.."

KNOCK!

he pulled away as quickly as lightning, cursing under his breath, he walked towards his bedroom door and swung it open. "what?" he snapped at the person.

it was jace.

"why the snappy attitude?" jace asked, looking over alec's shoulder and noticing me. "ohh," jace said, "you have... company," jace said in a teasing tone.

i could already tell alec rolled his eyes at him. "maybe i should go.." i said, not wanting to upset anyone.

"no, jace was just leaving, weren't you?" alec growled. "uhh...y-yeah," jace said, walking away quickly.

alec groaned, closing the door and leaning his head against it. i bit my lip and walked up towards him, tapping his shoulder lightly. "are you okay?"

he turned towards me, "yeah, uh, you need new clothes," he stated, walking over to his closet as if nothing ever happened.

okay then.

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should i add more steamy scenes with alec and holly? or nah?
hope y'all enjoy this chapter!
sorry for any errors.
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