Kiss Land...

Twelve

-One Week Later-

Naya POV

I'm back in Kiss Land, back to work. Abel is still back in Toronto, his brother's funeral is tomorrow. I'd rather not attend because I don't know his brother, I'm not anything to Abel and I'm not into mushy shit like that.

What you may not know is, I suffer from depression. I've never tried to take my own life but I have harmed myself many times and almost accidentally killed myself.
Sometimes I feel like my life is shitty and not worth living but I'm too much of a pussy to end it all because life must have some benefits to be worthwhile, I just haven't found them yet.

I think my jobs brought on the depression and the drugs I do. Not opening up to love and shutting myself out probably does contribute and make it worse too.

I haven't bothered to tell Abel any of this because why does he need to know? He's a sweet guy but I don't want him to worry about me, I'm not worth it.

-3am in Kiss Land-

I decided to text Abel since I may never see him again.

-TEXT CONVO-

Me - Abel, you're an amazing guy and you've honestly given me the best time of my life when I've been with you. I'm so sorry that I've been so harsh and inconsiderate with your delicate, fragile feelings and emotions towards me, I know how you feel and why you feel that way. After years of living numb, opening your heart to someone new to get it broken all over again, it's awful but baby I promise you I never meant to hurt you, I've been so close to loving you but my lifestyle won't allow it. Just know someone out there deserves your love, just not me, I hope you find that person one day. Don't worry about me, live your life and I wish you all the best and hope you find sanity and happiness in your life.

*3:12am*
Abel- Naya what the fuck? Are you okay?!

*3:14am*
Abel- Are you hurt? Why are you saying this?

*3:18am*
Abel- Naya, babygirl answer me you're scaring me

*3:24am*
Abel- Naya please.....baby answer me, I love you, don't think you're hurting me, you're not, I knew you felt this way I've loved girls like you before

-The next day, 1pm, Toronto-

Abel POV

Right now I'm stood in a church with my boys and my remaining family, my cousins.

I stood and listened to the pastor as he spoke such kind words of my brother. I miss him like crazy already.

After the funeral I plan to go back to Kiss Land and find Naya, she was acting like she was moving away from me or something and I'm not letting that happen.

We bowed our heads in prayer as I took in every word the pastor said about Aden. He lay peacefully in his casket, he looked so clean and pure.

The last time I cried was when my momma died but today I think for the first time in ten years, I'll cry again. Just looking at him breaks my heart that he's not hear to crack his dumbass jokes or bother me about not using my fame right, whatever I do in my life from now, will be for him.

After the pastor finished speaking, my family came over to me and gave their condolences then my boys came over.

"Boys, come back to my place and smoke some, I really need it right now." I begged.

"Sure bro, we're here for you, anything." Lamar said.

"Not for long though, I got somewhere to be."

"Where's that?" Hyghly asked.

"I'm going back to Kiss Land for a week or two, Naya texted me last night sounding all sad and depressed and shit." I explained.

"You know she's bad for you bro. Since you met her you have been doing drugs you said you'd never even dream of doing. Plus you like her and she don't like you back, your type is the most fragile and if someone don't like you back it can really hurt man." He paused. "Show me the message she sent."

I handed him my phone with the message on the screen and he gasped.

"Abel do you really care about her?" He asked.

"Yeah, why?"

"You better get on the next flight to Kiss Land, this bitch is about to kill herself." He added.

"What?" I asked anxiously.

"Wait. I didn't even think of that, oh my god Hyghly she can't, bro she can't kill herself." I said as I ran to the car and got my driver to take me to the airport.

When we got there I ran as fast as I could to my jet (I keep it in the airport) and my pilot flew my to Japan.

-14 hours later-

Touched down in Kiss Land. Skipping the customs I ran faster than I ever have to get to a cab.

"Take me to this club." I instructed.

We got there and when I ran inside I couldn't see her, I tried backstage..she wasn't there.

Her place ain't far from the club so instead of waiting for another cab I ran all the way to her apartment.

When I ran up to her door it was locked, I knocked but there was no answer so I kicked it down and revealed Naya on the floor foaming form the mouth, she didn't look like she was breathing at all.

"Naya."

"NAYA WAKE UP." My voice started to crack as I shouted louder.

"NAYA PLEASE BABY." I cried.

No, no. She can't be dead. I couldn't feel her pulse, she was pale, almost blue. There's no waking up from this, she looks like she's been sat here for hours. She's really gone.

I didn't know her for long, but in that short time she opened me up, showed me life in a different perspective.
People wanna say she was bad for me but I can't see that, I liked her.

When leaving her apartment I thought to myself, how will I sleep? Will I ever visit Kiss Land again?

17th November.....was my last trip to Kiss Land.