Made Strong | Yoongi Jiae

Bag of mixed emotions (Updated)

Yoongi had his arms around her waist, and from a distance they may have looked like a couple of teenagers fooling around.

"ah, yoongi?" she timidity asks

"don't fucking talk right now" his voice hard

He hides his face into her hair. The physical contact sending her heart and mind into a frenzy. What do people do in this situation? No one apart from her parents has ever dared to touch her in such an intimate way, not since she was a child. Was he upset?

"fuck" he groans. The sound doing things to her body she never expected. "I hate you" he suddenly adds.

That certainly was not what she expected. He wasint sad, he's angry. Suddenly his hold began to tighten and crush her, until it hurt and now she's sure hes not looking for comfort.

"hey! let me go, please. Yoongi"

His anger seemed to increase, a low growl escaped from his throat, and he pushes her away.

His eyes look heated with irritation and peirce right into hers. The next moment his hand griped the back of her head and her towards him. Pulling her into a kiss.

It was jiae first kiss. Tight lipped, and emotionless.

She shoves him away hard.

"stop it!" jiae wanting to sound angry, but she sounded vulnerable instead.

"what?" he gave her a judgmental expression. "I know that day we took videos to of you, you thought I wanted to kiss you remember? If I can recall correctly, you're the one who wanted me to kiss you" he reminded her haughtily. He had a stupid smug look on his face.

She decided not to respond, but he saw that as a sign to keep talking. Mocking her. Why did he look so confused looking at her?

"you know, I think you looked great in that video, and those little pictures we have together, you looked so excited just to be near me." he said so sarcastically to irritate her. Make her angry. And it worked.

Its added to the fire that was her anger she was hiding below the surface. But she tried hard to remember that he'd just lost his sister, and this was probably just him acting out. And he was choosing to act like an asshole. She guesses that he really wasn't acting like himself. She took a slow breath before speaking again.

"i- I know you're upset the news about yoonji. But please dont"

Dont what exactly?

"you pitty me?" he asks. His mood switching immediately.

"what, well-"

"Well fuck your pitty." he seethed. She winced at his hostility. "Fuck you. You are the reason she is dead. I dont want anybody feeling sorry for me, especially from you." then he slapped her across her cheek.

She yelped. The action was so unexpected that jiae couldn't look at him straight away.

But yoongis hand shook, and his breath froze. A moment of regret and fear ran across his face.

But Jiae didn't make any of these observations. She looked to the ground, feeling small and simply bagan to fear him even more. As if suddenly yoonji had left a piece of herself to her brother.

Jiaes eyes bagan to tear up, she once again remembers what fear felt like. He began to stumble on words.

"you-you do whatever the fuck I tell you. Alright? You obey me. Or else... Im putting those pictures on the Internet" Yoongi hurriedly added to his threat. Then he was gone.

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He took a few days until he began asking jiae for favors. She's never been blackmailed before. But her secret guilt makes sure she feels like she owes him just a little of herself every time.

He was cold towards her. And was always rude. It was like how he was in the past. But she supposed it was alright as long as he didn't hit her again, she was okay.

But she hated it. The feeling of being a hostage was strong. She was finally free of yoonji, but that had only lasted a short while. But now yoongi, not only made her feel small, he makes her so mad. But he also confused her so much, he'd kissed her knowing she had a weakness for him in the past. And now he mocks her with it. It was hurtful.

Her irritation was building.

But why was she doing everything he asks her? Shes not so sure of the answer. Maybe subconsciously its was her way of showing him that she really was sorry about his sisters death.

Jiaes mind wonder's towards yoonji. What really happened to her? Was suicide something she had been thinking of doing for a life time of pain? What about yoongi? Is there some chance he thinks the same way as his sister, and sees death as just an easy escape from this life?

Jiae certainly can't afford feeling like she had been the reason for someones death a second time. She convinces herself that that was her sole reason for just accepting thier arrangement.
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Today, he sent a message to jiae, telling her to meet him at the school gym after club activities. Hesitantly jiae showed up to an empty gym hall.

She then sees him appear from around the corner in his basketball uniform. He sees her, and she quickly look away.

"clean up" is all he says. So she do what he says.

She quietly picks up the equipment left around by the last users. Everyone had gone home after the afterschool activites. Yoongi had basketball practice, and was behind for clean up. So jiae guesses that it's her job now too.

He began to really get on her nerves again, he's laughing at the picture on his phone of him and her. He's been doing this on purpose. Wanting to get a rise out of her. And this time it works. She huffs in indignation.

Jiae angrily reaches for his phone, but he refuses to let go. He was as surprised at her sudden action, as she was with herself.

"give it to me!" she yells at him finally.

She lunges at him, her momentum stumbled both of them to the ground. They rumbled, yanking at each others hair, and grabbing at any flesh they could reach. They wrestled like children.

When jiae finally got his phone into her hands, one look at the screen, and it was what she knew it was. The damn video of her. She didn't hesitate to smash it to the ground, the crack of the screen loud and unmistakable in the hall.

There was a halt in the moment. They both panted and stared at what she'd just done.

"you're really fucking crazy. You know that?" he said in such an oddly calm way.

She'd expected his fury, but it didn't come. And she's only really looking at him properly right this moment. His lack of fight, and anger, was unusual. A closer look at his face his cheek had a deep maroon colour. Almost looking like a natural flush of heat, but it wasn't. On a second look, it was definitely a bruse.

Jiae then noticed that there were more on other parts of his body, his forearms, and a large one peaking out from his shoulders, and surely there would have more hidden beneath his clothes. These bruses were not new.

Yoongi looks resigned. And stands up to leave, but picks up his broken phone. "finish up here"

He was almost by the door when he ruins her rare moment of sympathy for him. He just can't shut up for one second?

"everyone backs up thier phone in a cloud now, you realise that right?" despite looking exhausted he puts on a dumb smug expression, that irritatingly reminds her of how handsome he is. "you owe me a phone now, you idiot."

Jiae yells into her hands in frustration and embarrassment the moment he closes the door behind him.