Randomness

Scared

The voices wont

keep quite 

inside my head

telling me screaming to me

to tell you 

Tell you

 I still love you

I still care for you 

I miss you

I still need you

The fact of it is 

I cannot tell you

I'm to scared 

scared of what 

you would say

That you would turn 

around and go 

away that

you would not stay

Im forever afraid 

to give you

that chance

that chance to rip away

and leave me alone in 

this world that I have

to call home

I'm forever afraid 

of telling you

because I know 

thats something you

 could never do

Loving me is impossible to do

Loving me is to much to ask

and I understand that

But the thought of us

 I cannot erase

It's emroided in my brain

and it brings me so much pain

I hate the thought of loveing you

I hate the thought of still needing you 

Needing you to help me through

My problems, my insacurities

Needing you to hold my hand

 and guide me through

my maze of life

Needing your comfort 

for the fact that

I feel alone 

alone in this 

world that I still

have to call home

Every thought of you is 

driving me insaine

I would love to be able to tell you

that I could live without you

but deep down inside 

I know thats not true

And it's getting to 

the point where I wish

I could say that

I still need you but

I know that you