It started quite long ago
But at that time I thought it was normal
A simple way to deal with a disobedient child
But the truth is,I'm not even that disobedient
And I've long since stopped being a child
When one or two words can set him off
It's quite hard not to feel anxious
"Go away" I said to my mum once
And suddenly he was in the room
Taking up the whole space
Not even light can escape him
And then comes the punch
The fist flies into my skull
But there is no pain
Then the violent kick
And this time there's a slight burn
But the shock blanks it out
Standing up I look into his eyes and speak
"I don't care"
Suddenly his hands are lashing out
To twist and turn around my neck
My feet no longer on the ground
I thrash with fear
And that's exactly what he wants
With fear comes control
But he doesn't realise
That the three little words
The "I don't care"
Was a tiny step in my defiance
Tears spring to my eyes
But the pain never comes
Not the physical at least
Because when I look into my mother's eyes
And see her calmly looking back
Three hurtful words escape her lips
"You deserved it"
And with those words my love for them escapes
No matter how hard they try to change me
I will never be that tame
Because there's one thing that I've realised
I too can play this painful game
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I'm drowning(my rants)
RandomJust rants I wrote before, most of this no longer applies to me. Some rants may border poetry.
