I Still Think You're Beautiful and i Don't Ever Want to Lose My Best Friend

Finding Inspiration

Vic's POV

I woke up at noon the next day to a text from Anna. As soon as I saw her name all of the memories from the night before came flooding back like a tidal wave. I couldn't handle it so I ignored the text and pulled on a long sleeved t-shirt that would cover my fresh cuts and went downstairs hoping that I wouldn't have to talk to anyone just yet.

I was in luck, my mom and dad had both already left for work and I found a not on the island in the middle of the kitchen from Mike:

"Vic,

I didn't want to wake you, I figured that you didn't get much sleep last night. Everyone's up at Jaime's come join us when you're up if you feel up to it. ​​​​​​​​ ​​If you don't at least send me a text to let me know that you're alright

~M"

I pulled out my phone and sent Mike a text:

"Hey, I'm awake, thanks for not waking me up, I'm not up to going up to Jaime's, tell them that I'm not feeling well or something, see you when you get home." I received a reply in a matter of seconds.

"Thanks, I will, come on up if you feel any better, they may start to get suspicious 'cause you were 'fine' last night." He, of course, was right.

"Yeah, I may come up in a bit , I just can't right now, I'll text you if I decide to come up." I replied knowing that I probably wouldn't end up going at all I knew Tony was there and I couldn't see him until I got my emotions back in check.

"Alright, see you in a bit."

"Yeah, okay." I sent off the final text of the conversation and sighed.

I had the sudden urge to release feelings, I wanted to try something new, I wanted to write, not just anything, I want to write a song.

I ran up to my room and grabbed a sharpie and a now designated notebook to be my lyric book. I had one lyric going through my head,

"But you don't know what it's like waking up in the middle of the night, scaring the thought of kissing razors​​​​​​​​​​. This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in." I looked up from the paper that had a few drops of water on it and decided that I was determined to make that lyric into a song. I stood up quickly and ran as fast as possible to the basement and grabbed my acoustic guitar and hurried back to my room and immediately  started to figure out a chord progression that would go with the lyric and then proceeded to write more lyrics.

Mike's POV

It's been over 3 hours since I've heard from Vic​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ and I'm worried, don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with the guys but I was really concerned that Vic would do something that he would regret.

"Hey guys, I, uh, I've gotta go, my parents just asked me to grab a couple things from the store." I said quickly, it wasn't a lie they had asked me to grab some things, but I was going back to my house first to make sure Vic is okay. I couldn't help but worry that he was going to relapse and start hurting himself again, he used to be bullied to the point where he would cut himself. I found him one morning on the ground in a pool of his own blood in his room. That was one of the worst things I've ever had to experience in my life to know that my own brother didn't feel comfortable enough with me to tell me what was going on, the family knew that he was getting bullied, but we didn't know how bad it was, he hid it. Then everything did a complete 180 when Anna showed up she made him want to get better and I would never be able to thank her enough for that. I think that was why Anna kissing Tony was hitting him so hard, I think he's always been in love with her. ​​​​

After a chorus of goodbyes from the guys I basically ran out of Jaime's house grabbing my skateboard as I went and got back to my house with record timing.

As soon as I got in the house I heard Vic's voice carrying down the stairs as he played a song on his guitar that I've never heard before. As silently as possible I walked halfway up the stairs to be able to hear more clearly, I knew eavesdropping was wrong, but at this point I don't give a shit.

"Baby stay away from my friends, 'cause I need them to carry me. When it's over I'll count back from 10 and you can listen to something you've never heard before...but you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night scaring the thought of kissing razors. This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in. Stay away... Just stay away from my friends." (A/N link to Stay Away From My Friends by Pierce The Veil is in the notes)​​​​​​​​​​​​

I stood there in complete shock, Vic must have written this song. I decided that I should probably make my presence known, I walked heavily up the last few stairs and walked up to Vic's room and knocked on the door nervously.

He opened his door with a look of fear and desperation on his face

A/N

Link for Stay Away From My friend by PTV:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzjIBlcZQ6s​​

Okay...so this is definitely the longest chapter I've written so far! I hope it was worth the wait! I have big plans for this story I promise! Please let me know what you think! I really love hearing from you guys it means so much!

P.S.I also need a character to play Vic's bitchy ex so if anyone feels like being transformed into her I would greatly appreciate it! ;)​​​​ ​​​​

P.P.S. Keep an eye out I'm going to be starting  mike fan fiction shortly​​​​! I'm really excited to start that one! :D

~Rachael​​