Life isn't Fun

2/17/16- wednesday

So today wasn't all that bad. I did some bad stuff but you know, that's how it goes. I woke up this morning and shut my alarm off. I made a deal with myself to sleep for another 10 minutes. I slept for and hour. I rushed all morning to get ready and get to school on time. I practically ran to the school. Right when I go there, I realized it was a late start. I felt like the stupidest person ever.

Thank god my friend was there. We waited for Skylar hen we walked to Cenex and met up with the other Skylar. When we got back to the school, the AIDS made us choose where to go. Study hall or watch a movie. Skylar Luther and I decided to watch a movie since neither of us are going on the semester reward tomorrow. Skylar Lambert and Carry decided to stay in study hall.

In science I felt like everyone hated me and I don't even know why! I feel like I'm just the worst person to ever exist and that no one even cares if I live or die. I know it's not true but it feels that way. After science and history, I had art. That was real fun especially considering the teacher hates me. I can't really blame her since I'm a complete bitch in that class. Skylar, Lilly and I were sitting together and Lilly showed us that she cut for the first time last night. I cut last night too, so did Skylar. We were sick of being called sluts and whores like really don't people have anything better to do then call me a slut? Skylar and I each grabbed a scissors and... Well... You know the rest.  My arm still burns a little bit.

I officially suck at anything musical when people I know are watching. I stayed inside because it's cold as fuck out right now and I decided to lock myself in the room that's supposed to be sound proof but I guess not. I was practicing for Solo and Ensemble and I guess everyone else could here me. I don't know why but I get really insecure when people in my grade here me sing or play piano. Oh well.