Forgive Me

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Alex's POV

Today I was meeting up with Tobin Heath. My girlfriend for two years. Except, I don't know for how much longer.

See. I've been traded to the new NWSL club, Orlando Pride. Well it was sort of my decision and right now I'm trying to figure out why I chose it.

I was going to tell her today when we met up. I wasn't quite sure how she's respond. We've been playing for the Portland Thorns together for two years and it was great.

I have never really been good at long distance relationships. My last one was a disaster. I pull into Tobin's driveway. We thought about living together, and we do, just during the season. Then I go back to LA or Seattle and Tobin stays here in Portland.

I come and visit almost every weekend. I admit that's expensive but I don't know why I feel a little uncomfortable staying with Tobin. Maybe that means that we arn't exactly me at to be together if I'm uncomfortable with her.

She's more touchy than me. I like it but sometimes I don't want to be touchy. I just want to talk or something.

I ring the doorbell. She almost immediately opens it. When she sees me she smiles her million dollar smile and jumps on my. Luckily I don't fall.

"I missed you." She says. I smile.

"You saw me two weeks ago. And I missed you too." Actually I kind of forgot about her part of the time. Mainly cause I was traded.

"Ya. Two weeks to long. You don't have to knock you know. You technically live here too." She puts her legs on the ground but keeps her hands around my neck.

"I know." I hear a jingling and look over her shoulder. I see Luna running to us. I let her go and kneel down.

"Hi Luna! You miss me?" I say in that one wierd voice when you talk to your pets or a baby. She just barks and I laugh. Tobin come sin and closes the door behind her.

"So what do you want to do? Arsenal is playing soon." I stand back up.

"Let's watch that. But I also have to talk to you sometime." Her face immediately looks concerned.

"Why? Is something wrong?" I bite my lip.

"No. Well kinda. Ya." I look away from her. She walks to me and puts her hand on my face and turns my head.

"Wanna tell me now?" She asks softly. I feel tears in my eyes. I put my hands on her wrist.

"You know that new club team?" I ask.

"Ya..." She stays slowly.

"Well. I've been traded there from Portland." Her eyes widen and I see a mix of emotions fly through her eyes before she covers it with her hands.

"When?" She asks.

"A week and a half ago." She removes her hands and takes a breathe.

"And this was your decision?"

"Well. Kind of ya. I also wasn't saved like you." She breathes through her teeth.

"So you didn't tell me or ask me about it. Your girlfriend who loves you. And now your going to Orlando which is basically on the other side of the country without talking to me?" I see tears in her eyes. "And we know how you deal with long distance relationships." I sniff.

"I'm sorry. I've always wanted to play in Florida and I thought it would be best for my career. Don't you want what's best for me?" Wrong question. Tobin almost blows up in my face. But she keeps her anger well under control.

"Of course Alex." She says tensely. "When have I not? All I've cared about is you and making sure you were okay and getting enough rest and food and taking care of yourself. I've put my needs aside and helped you with yours. I gave up my family for you. They hate me right now and I havnt talked to them in three years. And it fuckin hurts that I don't aye my relationship with them still. But then I remember you and I think that it is all worth it. So ask me again if I want what's best for you and care about you."

"Tobin." I start.

"Nope. Ask me again." She says firmly.

"Do you want what's best for me." I ask irritated.

"Hell yes. I don't know if we can do this anymore." I start to cry. She was already crying.

"Please Tobin. I'll try harder. I don't want us to end." I run to her and hug her never wanting to let her go.

"We can try. But if one thing happens it's done. Deal?" I look up and smile through the tears.

"Deal." Tobin took this a little to harshly but I'm glad she was willing to try long distance.

Alis POV

Ashlyn was out getting groceries and I was bored so I turned the tv on and started flipping through the channels. Then one thing catches my eye.

"Ashlyn Harris to be traded to new NWSL club team the Orlando pride. We spoke to her a while ago about it and she said she was excited to be back where it started for her in Florida." I pause the tv with the headline on it and get up and wait for Ashlyn to get home.

I as getting angrier and sad the longer I waited. Soon I see her pull into our driveway. I see, being the lazy person that she is, bring all the bags in we're it was on her belt or in her hands.

I open the door for her. She gives me a look and walks past me to the kitchen.

"What's with the face?" She asks.

"Look at the tv." She gives me another look like I'm crazy and goes out to the living room. I fold my arms. She comes back with a pale face.

"Oh." She says quietly.

"Mhm. Care to explain?" I ask. She gulps.

"Well. I was asked awhile ago if I wanted to. I agreed agreed because I wanted to finish there in Florida. Why is this such a big deal?" She asks as she starts to put the groceries away. I stand there in shock.

"You'd be leaving me. I wouldn't see my best friend everyday. I won't have you here when I need you after a crappy game or feeling useless. I won't have you anymore to do all nighters with movies."

"I'll see after some games. And we'll be together for the national team. Are you going to help me with the groceries?" I scoff at her and leave.

"Ali! Come back!" She yells after me. I don't listen and go to my car and drive away. After I had gotten well away from the house I stopped the car and cried uncontrollably.

Ashlyn made me feel like a jerk. Like her leaving wasn't a big deal and I was supposed to be all tough about it. I didn't want to see her again. But I knew I'd have to face her at somepoint.

A/N: I need some ideas on the couples.

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