Alpha Code

Pain and scars

"Do not drop the level of blood"

"Hold her still. shes going to tear herself apart"

"Heart rate increasing"

"blood pressure is getting to high drop the infusion pace"

"I SAID DO NOT DROP INFUSION RATE"

"hold her still... strap her down i don't care do not let her move"

"The sedative is wearing off"

I flutter my eyes and my senses are overtaken by sharp light and sounds. Its as if i am on a strong LSD trip. Everything moves so slowly, but at the same time it moves extremely fast. It scares me a bit and i jerk about trying to get up. Breathing sharply i feel something, a sensation almost like biting at my wrists and ankles. I whimper and pull harder not able to properly use my strength i imagine i probably looked like a fish trapped in a net. I focused on a spot on the ceiling as involuntary tears started streaming down my face. The pain sears in burning paths all over my body. I quiver and scream, though the scream is choked. As i try to focus on the cause of that i feel my throat burn and i cough. Feeling a tube in the side of my mouth i realism i shouldn't be awake yet. 

"Shes going to hurt herself sedate her"

I feel something pierce my skin and i whimper trying to move away from the pain. Its impossible to escape it and once it goes away i begin feeling another sensation. It feels like walking into an air conditioned room one limb at a time. Everything becomes more hazy and I blink rapidly trying to clear my vision. I hear voices but can only make out sound. Like when people scream underwater. 

"levels stabilizing" 

"how much sedative did you give her?"

"Enough so she stopped moving"

"YOU MIGHT HAVE JUST KILLED HER"

"I'm sorry that i couldn't get the only f**king doctor in here to help her but right now if you are going to yell you can leave"

"Just please don't let her die." he said almost sobbing "Mea est Luna" he whispered in Latin. She is my Luna).

He sank into a chair and watched as they started the procedure. Tearing my chest open with a scalpel, The people operating on me consistently looked at my body then each other. They removed four of my ribs, and were preparing to remove and replace my heart. They talked quickly and decided that if it was possible they wanted to replace my left lung. It was badly damaged. I had punctured it twice and it would rip open if i changed. They brought the unconscious Bella into the room and Garret looked at her like a wounded animal. He moved from the seat and walked over to her. Brushing a gentle hand against her skin. Her skin turned cold at his touch, like he was made of ice. He pulled his hand away and noticed the necklace she was still wearing. He pulled it gently out of the johnny she was wearing. It was a small box necklace. Opening it he saw a piece of paper folded as small as possible. He opened it slowly and his heart sank. He sat on the floor against the wall and rubbed his eyes. Tears forming slowly. 

My Bella,

My love for you was as deep as the oceans, and as vast as the universe. My heart will always be yours now. Please take it and use it well. I would hate to be a usless sacrifice. Garret has already promised to take you as his. He has promised he will not take his mate but stay with you. Only you. Bella remember when you first found me. This is the same. You will find my heartbeat for the first time again, you will find my life within you for the first time again. Bella, Cor tuum in aeternum. Non vos me amastis minus amare . Dilige magnam et fortiorem quam insana quid aequora possint , tenere et claudere amor . Forte quadam die ut occidat te. Good bye my love.

(My heart is yours for eternity. Do not love any less than you have loved me. Love greater and stronger than the raging seas, and hold your love close. It may one day just kill you.)