Strange Love

T W O

Warning: there will be a few things about self harm in this chapter. Read at your own will. If you get triggered easily I suggest you turn away and not read this. Halen (boy) and Riley (girl) are twins and they are Imogen's cousins.

The next day I woke up to sweat, fear and anxiety. I pulled my knees to my chest and rested my chin on my kneecaps. They're back... Memories from the nightmare flooded in as I started to cry. I HATE and I never say hate -it's a strong word- so this goes to show why I don't sleep most of the time. "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz went off meaning either Ashton or Riley was calling me. I reaallyy didn't want to answer, but I wasn't gonna be an ass. I wiped my eyes and cleared my throat hoping I did not sound like I had been crying. "Hello?" Weakly the person replied, "Hey Imo..." Thank god. It's Riley, "What's up Ry?" "Halen is sick. I'm at the emergency room now.." I heard her choke out a sob. Halen was not in the ER for a simple cold or something, if he was, Riley wouldn't be crying. There's something more to it, "You're lying. What really happened with Halen?" "He went t-too far this time Imogen, he cut way too deep... I got home and found him sitting in the bathtub staring into space and bleeding." Good fucking lord Halen Matthew! Are you fucking serious?! "What are they saying now?" She inhaled deep before answering, "He's expected to be fine but lost a lot of blood..." I sighed in relief. "I can't come to Australia because I'm in Ohio with Katherine. But I plan on getting this pretty nice house in Seattle in about a month. So maybe then after we settle in I can see you and Halen." She sighed as well, "Yeah, that sounds good. I love you Imogen. Call me soon." "I will." She then hung up. As I went to put my phone aside, "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden went off. I groaned loudly in annoyance. I checked to see who it was and -just my luck- it was Ashley. Fucking great. I answered and this was the convo:
Me: "yes."
Ashley: "oh shit did I wake you up?"
Me: "no. But thanks for being cautious."
Ashely: "no problem"
Me: "so what did you want?"
Ashley: "oh, right, almost forgot" *laughs a bit*
Me: "yeah."
Ashley: "I just wanted to know if you and Katherine were coming back in today..."
Me: "uh..."
Me: "yeah. Sure, we'll be there in ten."
Ashley: "okay, bye Imogen"
Me: "bye."

I hung up and turned on my music. "The Kids From Yesterday" by My Chemical Romance came on and I smiled. 'Ash- wait a second Imogen... Its been a month. You left and it was for the better.' I stopped myself, I couldn't think about him. It'd only make the depression worse. In that effort, I shuffled my music again. "In Bloom" by Nirvana came on. "WHAT THE BLOODY HELL?!" Is what I wanted to scream out, but instead I said, "oh my gooooooooddd" he u- nope. Can't. Won't. I shuffled one last time (no pun intended). "Amnesia" by his band 5 Seconds of Summer came on. "WHAT THE FUUUUCCCCKKKK?!" Kat came in and I was now crying again... I think, "What happened Imo?" "Hm?" She came all the way in my room, "you're crying, what's the matter?" Fuck. I was right, I'm crying. I wiped my cheeks and turned off the music. "Nothing. We have to get dressed for studio." She simply nodded and went back to her room. I got dressed in a black long sleeve, black jeans and black flats. Yes, I'm having an emo day, shoot me. I didn't really care to do anything with my hair but brush it, so that's exactly what I did. I put in the regular piercings and walked downstairs and outside to my car not really wanting to talk to anyone - not even Katherine. I got in and put on my Collide With The Sky album letting 'May These Noises Startle You In Your Sleep Tonight' come on as I started the car. Katherine got in moments later dressed in a gray long sleeve, black jeans and white converse.
"Oh god is this Collide With The Sky Imogen?" she asked me sounding a bit concerned. All I did was simply look over and say, "does it matter." I honestly was not looking forward to her asking me 40 questions. It's my music and I just feel like listening to it. Besides, Misadventures is coming out in May so why not listen to some Pierce The Veil to celebrate. It only took them four years-not that I'm complaining, I would wait 10 years on these guys if I had to. Yes, I love their music that much don't judge me. I didn't care that she may have been glaring at me because I wasn't paying attention. I only wanted to get to the studio, practice for the next show, and get home so I could think about if leaving Michigan in the first place was right. I'd been doing that ever since we got to our first tour date in Sydney, all I did was think about the slight pain and utter sadness deep in his tone. The way his smile wasn't his genuinely happy one, but a smile that he knew he had to put on to keep me from changing my mind like I most likely would have if I'd known what he was really feeling. He had to put on a brave face, and I knew that. But yet I still kissed him on the cheek, told him that I loved him, and walked away to get on that plane to finally fulfill my biggest dream. I admit, I was depressed for the first week of the tour. But then Mikey called me and told me that he was fine and that I should try to be fine as well. So I did as he asked and stopped thinking about him as much as I could. I snapped out of my train of thought and pulled out then drove to the studio, my mind still a bit foggy but not enough to keep me from driving.
*25 minutes of pained thoughts and driving later*