Fuck. Why does it feel like I just got hit with a bat in my head. Fuck . Fuck. There's blood on my blankets .. No need to wonder what happened last night . I reach to turn on the light- shit it stings. You always forget the after effect . Phone . Where's my phone ?
*vibrates*
"good morning sleepy head 😍😍"- Kaiona 10:23 a.m
"Good morning beautiful 🙈"- Vonte 10:23 a.m
Shit maybe I replied too fast .. I feel the regret as soon as hit send
"That was a quick reply 👀☺️" Kaiona 10:25 a.m
See I knew it was too fast I knew it she's going too think I'm some loser with nobody to text.. Fuck
Staring at my screen and my mind is blank .. Say something anything....
"I think you're really really pretty 🙈" Vonte 10:30 a.m
Shit I should have said anything but that. Shit . Shit. Shit.... I'm going too just turn my phone on silent. What if she thinks I'm trying too hard? But... What if... She thinks I'm cute ? Fuck.. 60 seconds no reply... 75..seconds...80 seconds ... Yup she read it and she's probably laughing at it.. Showing all her friends. Why isn't there a like a button where you could unsend text messages.. 578 seconds.
*vibrates*
"Thank youuu🙈🙈☺️ you're not too bad yourself you know " Kaiona - 10:31 a.m
Does that say what I thi-, did she just call me cu-, this can't be real. I turn my phone off and back on. Part of me not expecting the message to be there.. But it's there.. Now there's even another one... From her...
"Actually you're pretty cute if I do say so myself 🙈"Kaiona - 10:33
Pinch me. Someone pinch me.. She thinks I'm cute... She actually thanks I'm cute.. Play this cool .. Play it cool. But not too cool don't be an asshole , be smooth .
*types* "Thank you honey bunch 😏😘😘" Honey bunch ??! She said you're cute not that she wants too marry you. *deletes* Okay thank smooth . What would Troy say?
*types* "this could be the start of something new , it feels so right to talk to you " really Vonte. Wtf. I said what would he say,not copy the lyrics from the freaking song. What are you going to do next ask her to bake her a cake ?
*deletes*
*slowly types*"do you like ca-"
I did not mean that literally . Fuck. What do I say..
*deletes*
Fuck it . Be honest
*types*
"Thank you beautiful 🙈 look I have no idea how to say this ... But I cannot get you out of my mind.. Ik that sounds crazy.. I mean we just met and i can't remember your name ... But you're smile I remember that, the way your eyes move and you cover your mouth...Idk where I'm going with this but .. Ik that You're special and sorry this is so random I probably sound crazy it's I'm just not too used too this 🙈" - Vonte 10:49 a.m I hit send before I can talk myself out of sending it. I didn't lie .. I mean yeah I get called cute a lot, I've texted other guys that I'm used too. Same old thing. Flirt . Dry convos, sext, get bored leave. That.. That's old news . But the chills I get when her night lights up my screen. The way my heartbeat races at the thought of her smile. The way she's the last on my mind.. That feeling.... Like you just found your new favorite song , or tasted your favorite food.. I don't know what it is with this girl but I
*vibrates*
"Awwwwwwwww that was so sweet... Is it bad if i say... That I've been thinking about you just as much... And well if your crazy then we will just be crazy together 😘" Kaiona -10:51 a.m
I smile crept across my face. Not a forced one or a fake one .. That feeling is back.. The sun doesn't shine anymore through my room than before.. But now everything seems brighter . I don't know what is it with this girl ... But I could get used to this.
