you can't save me

three ; secrets

I totally panicked I dropped the blade on the floor and yelled, "I'll be there in a minute."

I cleaned up the floor, and totally forgot about the bloody blade that i had dropped in the sink.

I went in the kitchen, and said, "what did you get tonight?"
Lucas said with a smile on his face, "chinese takeout."
I looked at him, while taking the food out, and said, "oo, my favorite. would you like to watch the new episode of pretty little liars?"
he sighed and said, "fine, but only because you want too, i totally don't cry at night because emison hasn't happened!"
I actually lauged.
He smiled at my laughter and said, "Turn it on, im gonna go to the bathroom."

I started eating while Lucas went to the bathroom, then he came in with the bloody blade and said, "show my your wrists right now."
I looked at him annoyed, and pulled up my sleeves.
Lucas yelled, "Maya, what the fuck? Why would you do this to yourself?" his voice got quieter.
I replied with, "its none of your damn business!"
he scoffed and then said, "we all care about you! I know what your going through and your not alone."
I rolled my eyes and said, "no you don't know, you have parents!"
then Lucas said, "Maya please, dont do this to your beautiful self, you have had terrible stuff happen but you don't need to hurt yourself, please stop."
"Okay, i'll try but you can't tell Riley or Farkle, or i'll....do something!"

After we finished our food and watching pretty little liars, and Lucas suggested that we go out so we went to central park.

we were walking around, and Lucas suggested that we play a game, so i said, "wanna play 20 questions, you already know my secrets."
He laughs and says, "sure!"
(conversation)
lucas : favorite place?
maya : the park

maya : do you still like riley?
lucas : no, why do you wanna know hart?

maya : i was just curious.
lucas : have you ever loved someone?
maya : no

maya : have you ever loved someone
lucas : yes, and no it wasn't riley

maya sat up from the grass she was laying on next to lucas, and she said, "what then who was it?" she started laughing.

lucas pov

maya was so beautiful when she smiled, or laughed. It was refreshing to see that smile.

i loved maya, she was so beautiful inside and out. it broke me to see her the way she had been for the past few months.

She looked at me, staring into my eyes. then i kissed her. she looked so shocked, she said, "we can't do this, im not good for you." then she got up and left.

hope you enjoyed this chapter, i liked writing it! have an amazing day!! - sophie <3