trying to live without you

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You left me....you left me all alone I couldn't even say one word but "I'm sorry" you say I was "to much" or "to clingy" or taking things to fast but I just knew I was inlove with you I knew i wanted to be with you for the rest of my life but now I can't even look at you without getting upset or wanting to die. I can't talk to you without crying, you've moved on you don't need me anymore I was just another girl. You're new girlfriend is more prettier then me probably more smarter, probably has a better personality then I ever would.I'm also to sad or to clingly for anyone I get to jealous you see its because I have the fear the fear that someone I love most will just get taken from me at any second of any day. I tried my best to make you happy I tried my best to show my love but I guess it wasn't good enough and now trying to live without you is like hell a on going depression that I can't get out of, you destroyed me destroyed me worse then anyone but yet I still with the best for you I would still kill for that smile to be across your face even if my face is just wet with tears.sometimes I hope you come to your senses that you'll come back to me and tell me you were wrong that you didn't mean to hurt me that you want us to be together again but I know...I know deep down inside that would never happen that you would never be mine my friends say "he really didn't like you he used you" but I refuse to believe that I refuse to believe anything anyone tells me that's negative about you because I still love you I was there for you when no one else was I tried my best to never leave your side together or not I wanted you to know I was there for you that I still cared and loved you even tho others left you in the dirt