trying to live without you

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Sometimes I feel like you don't care sometimes I feel like you want me back sometimes I feel like you just want me as a second option when no one else is around I just can't believe how I'm still deeply inlove with you just like I was when we first met and when I hear from you I don't know if I should cry or be happy but you don't know how hard it is for me to try and be your friend when I'm so inlove with you sometimes I try to get away from the affection because I'm not sure if you actually feel the same way about me as I do you. My heart crumbles with every second I'm away from or don't hear from you...you were my bundle of joy even tho I didn't show it.. you were my everything and now I'm left with nothing and I miss you...I miss life with you I miss how we were I miss the Happy moments the depressed ones and even the Times we fought because at least then I knew you were mine and I'm sorry for everything I've done wrong I'm sorry for being to depressed around you..I just had the constant fear that I was going to lose you and when I did I couldn't handle it I wanted to die so badly..my life is just Shity and I don't know what to do with myself anymore.. I just want to hold you and not Let you go...