mental health: notes

suicide

when life gets hard, people don't usually go for suicide as the first option. it's probably the 3rd or 4th option, after trying to get your life back together. so if that doesn't work, what's the point in life at all?

when I was 2 years into secondary school, my best friend from primary school had overdosed and attempted to kill herself. it didn't work. I blamed myself for a while. I never saw that she was depressed. that she was hurting inside. no one did. she was fucked up. badly. after the incident, she got better. but she got better in a bad way. she was happy again, but she changed. a lot. I miss the old her. the her before the suicide attempt. the primary school her. we were a pair, now we're separated. it's different. now, the roles have reversed. I'm the depressed one. she's the happy one.

suicide can change many lives. not just the person who attempts. but it also affects everyone around them. friends and family: old friends, new friends, close family, not so close family. people will be affected in different ways. mostly bad.

you'll be okay.

if anyone wants to talk, just message me. I'm here for you. jc x