Animal I Have Become

The Nightmare

A/N: Trigger warning. Contains self harm. Also, Just a note. Since Dean is part mage, he has all the traits a human has. He can get erections, he has blood flowing through his veins, he needs sleep, but he has to drink blood or else he'll get malnourished and sick. There is one more thing about him, but that will be revealed in a later chapter. Possibly either chapter 4, 5, or 6.

Dean tossed and turned in his sleep. Yet another nightmare was haunting him. He gasped as he woke up, bolting upwards in his bed. He whimpered, he wanted Roman. But he was just so afraid of letting someone get close to him again. Granted, the rape happened 12 years ago, when he was 16, but he still had nightmares to this day about it.

He whimpered as he began to shake, another panic attack starting. "Roman!" He cried out. He began to sob, he wanted this pain to end. He crawled to the bathroom, searching for something to end the pain. He finally found a razor, and he stomped on it to get the blade out. Once he had the blade out, he sliced it deeply across his skin. He frowned when his powers began to seal up the wound as soon as he did it. He dropped the razor and began to hyperventilate, this wasn't going to work. He walked to the nightstand next to his bed and pulled out a gun, holding it to his head.

Roman cocked his head sideways, he heard Dean cry out his name. It sounded more pained than usual. Roman transformed and quickly ran to Dean's apartment, throwing the door open. Transforming back into his human form he called out for Dean.

"Roman!" Was his response.

Roman ran into Dean's room and found him holding the gun to his head and shouted, "Put that down!"

Dean sobbed as he pulled the gun away from his head, throwing it aside. He crawled over to Roman and sobbed into his shoulder. "Make it stop Ro...make the pain stop...make the nightmares stop...save me Ro!"

"Are you...are you asking me what I think you're asking me?"

"Yes..."

Roman nodded and helped Dean into the bed, where he cuddled him until Dean calmed down. He then gave Dean a long kiss on the lips, slowly slipping his tongue inside. Dean moaned into the kiss and said, "Sorry I was so stubborn before..."

"It's okay. I knew you would give in to me sooner or later. Now...are you sure you want this?"

"I...I...yes...I want you to heal me...to make me new again...save me Ro..please..."

"Okay...I'm gonna start off slow though, to make sure you're okay."

Roman lifted Dean's shirt over his head and groaned at the sight. "You...are...so...sexy..." He started to place kisses up and down Dean's torso. When he reached Dean's nipples, he sucked one into his mouth and bit it gently, causing Dean to moan loudly.

Roman continued to trail kisses down Dean's torso, until he reached the waistline of Dean's pajama pants. He bit them and began to pull them down with his teeth, revealing that Dean wasn't wearing any underwear. His thick, 8-inch dick popping out from behind the fabric of the pants. Roman groaned at the sight of Dean's slightly hardened cock. "Fuck...you're so big."

He instinctively took Dean's cock in his mouth and slightly began to bob his head. Dean groaned loudly when he felt that hot mouth around his cock. "Fuck Roman...oh fuck..." He began to thrust his hips into Roman's mouth quickly, groaning when he heard Roman gag. To be truthful, Roman sucked his dick way better than any woman ever has. He moaned out even louder and felt his stomach begin to tighten. "Ro...I gotta cum...I'm gonna cum..."

Roman gave him a thumbs up to let him know it was okay to cum in his mouth. Dean grunted and moaned loudly as his cock began to pulse out its release. "Ohhhh godddd..." He groaned.

Roman swallowed all Dean had to give and pulled his mouth off Dean's cock. "You taste so good Dean..." He looked down at his own growing bulge. The thought of being buried deep in that ass made his cock twitch. He pulled his pants and boxers down. He paused for a moment. "You got any lube, Dean?"

"Fuck...no I don't..."

"You really want me to do this then? I don't want to hurt you."

"I'll be fine...any cuts I get, my powers will seal them up right away."

"Powers?"

"I'm part mage. You didn't know that?"

"No. So wait...couldn't you use your powers to make a bottle of lube?"

"No. I can mainly only use my powers to heal wounds quicker than a human would heal. And to heal other people."

"Oh..."

"What's wrong?"

"I don't want to hurt you..."Dean leaned in to give Roman a kiss and said, "You won't hurt me, I promise."

"Okay.." Roman said.

Roman began to place kisses up and down Dean's body, smirking as Dean squirmed underneath him. Finally, he began to line himself up with Dean's entrance. He heard Dean's breath hitch and felt trembling. He looked down to see Dean shaking, a look of panic on his face. "Stop! No! Don't do this to me! Bray! Stop!" He screamed out.

Roman frowned, it appeared that Dean was stuck in a memory of the rape. Roman got off of Dean, and laid next to him, pulling him into his arms. "Shhh...Dean. It's okay. It's just me, Roman. I ain't gonna hurt you..."

Dean whimpered in response and buried his face into the pillow. Tears stung his eyes and he looked away from Roman, whispering, "I'm sorry..."

"Don't be sorry. You just aren't ready yet. That's okay. But. You called me Bray. Is Bray the one that raped you?" Roman knew very well who Bray was. He was the head of a vampire clan better known as the Wyatt Family.

Dean nodded slowly and said, "He was also the one who made me a vampire. We...were high school sweethearts...but he just wanted to have sex...he used me..." Dean began to sob violently.

"Shhh it's okay. How about we just rest for the rest of the night?"

"O-O-Okay..." Dean said as he buried his face into Roman's chest.

Roman looked down at Dean and asked, "Do you need to feed at all before going back to bed?"

Dean thought for a moment. He was pretty thirsty. "Y-yeah..."

Roman smiled and said, "Feed from me. You won't kill me."

Dean was hesitant but then he brought his fangs to Roman's throat. Sinking his teeth into Roman's flesh, he began to drink from Roman. The taste was peculiar, but nothing that Dean couldn't handle. Once finished, he used his powers to seal up the wound in Roman's neck. Dean began to get concerned. Roman looked really pale after Dean fed from him. He hugged Roman tightly and whispered, "Do you need any food?"

"I'll take a nice, juicy steak if you have one." Roman said, chuckling. Dean began to get up, and Roman said, "You don't have to cook it, I can eat it raw." Dean nodded and went to get the steak, bringing it back up to Roman. He watched as Roman transformed into his wolf state and swallowed the steak in 3 bites. Once finished, Roman changed back to his human form and hugged Dean. "Thanks."

He laid the both of them down, holding Dean in his arms, not going to sleep until Dean was asleep. Once he heard the snores coming from Dean, he closed his own eyes and drifted off into dreamland.

A/N: OTL it sucks. I was rushing to get the end of the chapter done. Review and follow please.