Weeks went by and i got bigger. Me and hector have not been agreeing on what we want to do with the baby. I went to the doctor, to find out what choices i had at my age. I could keep the baby and not go to college, even though i could go to college but i know my family or his family won't let the baby live with them. Why am i even thinking about this? I'm not even an senior. What to do about this baby? I don't know i really don't want the baby. So weeks pass by and i am still wondering what i should do. I came to an desicon. I am going to abort the baby, i know i sounds so rude and heartless but i can not be an mother. Even if i had the baby and i do adoption i wouldn't be able to let her go. I want her to be happy and i know God will take care of her. I would've named her Emily. After my aunt who passed away while trying t save my brother Steven. They both passed that day. I was right there and i let it happen, not a day goes by where i don't regret not jumping in the road to save them. So much blood dripped from my hands while i was yelling and screaming for help. All i was wondering was Where will they go? Who will i be ? Who is gonna love me ? Many questions but no answers. I Love you emily and never forget that. I'm such a bad mother. Hector drove me to the place and tears rolled down his cheeks as we walked in the building. His eyes turning puffy and bloodshot red. Him making fists and the veins almost popping out of his arms. He was holding in his pain. He didn't want me to see him cry. Emily was his little girl, he thought he finally had an chance for someone to love him. Well his own mother didn't love him. She would always beat him and let her friends and boyfriends do horrible things to him. Many things happened to Hector stuff you wouldn't understand. He was hit on the daily, and inappropriately touched by his mother's friends. He felt alone and like nobody will ever love him. His own father said he hated him and his mother basically said it with her actions. Hector will never forget those days, Mostly because he still lives with his mother and nobody believes anything hector says. Hector is used to everyone thinking he's lying but that doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt. Hector knows that he hurts me when he cheats. However he doesn't know how to control his emotions. He justs wants to hurt everyone that hurted him. Not including me....well i think i never hurted him. Have I ?
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