Supernatural X Reader Imagines

Parachute (Dean X Reader)

Imagine: You have to comfort Dean when he thinks about all the things he had done.

5 weeks. It's been 5 weeks since Dean killed the darkness. Somehow you, Sam and Dean managed to kill her and you even saved Cas. The three of you helped Dean as good as possible but in the end he had to kill Amara. And it changed him. He behaved different. Dean kinda ignored you and Sam, he mostly laid in bed and listened to music. When he wasn't home he cleaned baby or did other things but hunting. You were married for 4 years now but he avoided to talk to you. You still shared the same bedroom but it was always silent. You asked Sam what to do but even he didn't know. You tried everything. You simply talked to him, you gave him devotion, you offered to give him some time but you never got an answer. Dean refused to talk. He refused to live. He just exsisted. Until one morning.

You woke up in the middle of the night with a cold spot beside you. Dean wasn't there. Again. Actually you stopped worrying that something bad happened after you got to know him a little better but this time it was different. It took you a while until you noticed weird noises. It sounded like... a mixture of thuds and sobs. You decided to get up and took your gun with you. Living with or as a Winchester was always dangerous and you could never know. You opened the door slightly and looked around. Nothing. You made your way down the halls and soon the noises became louder. You stopped in front of the wooden door which lead to your private gym area. You loved this place even if you're not really sporty. It was just a good place to spend some spare time and to stay fit.

You refused to knock and open the door until the thuds stopped. All you heard were sobs. *Knock knock* ... No respond. You took a deep breath and opened the door. In front of you stood a sweat-covered Dean who was showing you his back. The punchbag was still moving which means that Dean must have hit it the whole time. You're not sure if he didn't notice or if he didn't care that you just came in and saw him like that. Unaware because of your inner battle if you should speak up or not you let out the breath you were holding since you entered the room. Unformfortable silence filled the room. Eventually you spoke up and took a few steps closer to him.

"Dean..?" Your voice was shakey. You were afraid that he would ignore you or even yell at you. Actually he never did but... Since the incident he wasn't the same anymore. To your surprise he slightly turned his head. Again you moved a little bit closer. Your bodies were inches apart. You laid your hand in his shoulder. "Hey... Everything is okay. I'm here.." your voice was barely audible but loud enough for him to hear you. Dean shook his head and turned around. His eyes were red because of the missing sleep and the tears which were still streaming down his face. "No... (Y/N)... Nothing is okay. Nothing will ever be." "Don't say that.." You tried to wipe away his tears but he stopped you and held your hand. "You deserve better... Look at me. I'm broken. I got no future. With me there is no chance for you to get a life which is worth living. I know you want kids and no matter how much I want it as well I'm really sure we shouldn't. I don't want them to live a life like me and Sam did. You never gave up on me but it's time to face the fact that I'm already lost. (Y/N) I love you... But I want you to get happy - Without me.." More tears were streaming down his face and now even your eyes got wet. You can't believe what he just said. After all the things you've been through he is breaking up with you. Anger filled you up and you left the room without another spoken word. You went to bed and tried to sleep but all you did was crying and thinking about how to rescue your marriage with Dean, the man you loved more than anything.

*The next morning - Dean's POV*

I woke up on the gym floor. I can't remember that I fell asleep. That must have been the first 4 hours of sleep after 6 days without getting some shut eye. I look around and remember what happened before the blackout. (Y/N) heard me crying and tried to comfort me but I sent her away. I said cruel things to her that I actually don't mean but I really want her to get someone better. Someone who gives her everything she deserves and even more. I try to get up but everything hurts. I feel every muscle inside of me. Eventually I got up and made my way to our bedroom not sure if I should be willing to see her or not. I open our bedroom door quietly because she could be still sleeping but all I see is many autograph books and some photos all over the floor and on our bed. No (Y/N) in sight. I let out a sharp breath and make my way to our bed where one of the autograph books is open. The first picture I see shows me, (Y/N) and Sam in front of the Impala. Next to the picture is something written. "On our way to a new city. Can't wait to see how different it is to what I saw already." That must be the day we asked her to stay with us. I turn a few pages and see a picture of me and her. We look deep into each others eyes and smile like idiots. Her hands are around my neck and my hands rest on her waists. I didn't even know that this picture exists. Sam must have taken it. "Here we are. Standing close to each other, absorbing every little detail of one another. It's been 1 year since we're together now and I don't regret a single second. I'm really deep in love with you Dean Winchester!" I feel my lips form a huge grin. How did I ever get so luck?