This Is Me

Chapter 3

I woke up to the sound of the kettle, I walked into the kitchen to see my dad making coffee. He turned around and a huge smile plastered his face.
"Morning angel, how did you sleep!" He said as he picked me up.
"I slept good!" I smiled at him
"I'm taking you to the roundabout today!" He exclaimed. I jumped for joy. It's a tradition with us. Every Sunday he would take me to get any ice-cream I wanted and we would go to the roundabout together. We would swing under the huge oak trees, it was always my favorite part of Sunday's.
"Really!" I said, excitement taking over.
"Yes, now go get ready." He chuckled and the kissed me.
That was weird, why is he all of a sudden kissing me like this, so aggressively? Oh well...
He put me down and I went to the room to get changed.

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By now we were at the roundabout eating our ice-creams, enjoying the cool summer breeze. "Thank you daddy."
"You're welcome princess."
We continued with our fun, swinging under the giant oak trees, climbing on the monkey bars. This was what I loved most about my dad, he was always young at heart, he played with me , he was funny and silly.

We were now in the car, sitting in front of my house with my bag on lap.
My dad leaned in to kiss me... Why does he want to kiss me now? I thought he was walking me inside. He kissed me, his tongue slipping in my mouth, exploring every inch. What the hell is going on? Is this how people show their affection? Is this normal? If it's a way of affection why has my mom never done this? This is what was going through my head, I'm so confused. He pulled away and looked at  me for a second before hopping out the car and I did the same after. As we walked up the driveway we were in silence, none of us said a word until we reached the house. I saw my mom at the door, I raced to her and wrapped my little arms around her waist.
"Hi Micky, how was your weekend with daddy?" She smiled down at me.
"It was so fun mommy, we went to the roundabout and he bought me a chocolate ice-cream!" I exclaimed in joy.
My mom looked up and my father, glaring at him-neither of them daring to say a word to each other. I walked up to my dad slowly and hugged him, he kissed me on my forehead softly...
"Be good for mommy alright, I'll try visit you as soon as possible. I love you angel."
"I love you too daddy." I said sadly, I really didn't want him to leave.
He walked down the drive way, got in he's car and drove down the street of into the distance. I walked inside the house, my mom and I hand in hand.

It was 7:00pm and my mom and I were sitting in the lounge watching Monsters Inc. which is the first movie I ever got for my 1st birthday from my uncle Wayne, who actually happens to live across the street from us. It's been on my mind, what happened with my dad... I don't know what to do, should I tell my mommy or should I leave it? Whatever, I'm sure it's nothing to worry about. I jumped off the couch landing on the wooden floors, and scampered my small feet over to my mom who was lying on the other couch diagonal from me. I held my arms up to indicate I wanted to lye with he. She looked at me an chuckled, she picked me up onto the couch and lay me down in front of her, my back up against her stomach. She put her arm around my stomach and I feel asleep in her comforting arms.

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Monday, I'm so excited. I'm loving Grade 1, I've make new friends, I do real big people work... And I'm in the same class as my crush. That's probably the best part of school, he's so nice to me. He shares his lunch with me, he always sticks up for me on the playground, he shares his Lego. He's amazing, he's also a real looker with his gorgeous chocolate brown skin and his hazel colored eyes. His name is Sethu...
I'm up early, I do my hair, get dressed, eat my pronutro, brush my teeth. As soon as I'm done I run to the car
"Well, I can see someone's excited!" My mother exclaims with a grin.
"Well..." I say, carrying out the word.
"You should know by now that I love school."
We both laugh.

I've arrived at school, my mom gets my bag out of the boot and comes to the side of the car to open the door for me. She puts my bag on my back.
"Have an amazing day, love you and don't forget your father is fetching you to take you shopping."
Oh.... I forgot that he was fetching me, but it was a nice surprise to be reminded.
"Love you too mommy."
She kisses me on my cheek and I head for class.
I'm sitting in class staring at Sethu as usual, I'm a creep-I know but it's not like I can help it... Ok I can but I don't want to, he just so mysterious and gorgeous. The bell finally rings and everyone rushes out of the classroom in a stampede. I meet Sethu in our usual place, in the long tunnel on the playground. It's a nice spot, no one else goes there.
"Hi Sethu." I say with a big smile as I crawl into the tunnel.
"Hi Micaela, how was your weekend?"
"It was good, I got to spend time with my dad!" I exclaimed with a proud smile on my face. He just laughed.
I was doing the staring thing again, he didn't notice. I thought to my dad kissing me in the car, we've kissed before but only on the cheek as friends. I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna kiss him...
I tapped him on the shoulder, he looked at me and I leaned in. I kissed him... With tongue. His tongue moved in sync with mine. I was enjoying this, it's like nothing I've ever experienced.
"What in gods name are you two doing, get out right now I'm calling your parents!"
OH NO!!! I can't believe that teacher Peggy just caught us kissing. Sethu and I climbed out of the tunnel, walking on either side if teacher Peggy as she holds our wrists.
We wait in the office as she calls our parents, Sethu and I look at each other sympathetically.
"Your dad is on his way here now Micaela!" Teacher Peggy says with a scowl.
He's going to be so mad....
Especially since he is extremely racist.