present
"it is currently-"
he checks the time.
"4am and i miss you like crazy."
"it has been almost two months since you've died and nothing has been the same. eunie is growing extremely fast and its amazing how she's grown accustomed to joonie, lily, and zen because they are a lot bigger than her."
"bonbon died a week after you and i think it was really meant to be."
he laughs, eyes crinkling.
"you guys were always the closest friends, it made me jealous some times. my brother and i sometimes just watched and talked amongst each other because you never paid attention to us."
"i havent made these in awhile so i feel rusty. im about to graduate in a few weeks and it makes me sad you wont be able to see me do that. you'd probably just as excited as my mom and take pictures of me, yelling out my name to embarrass me."
he swiftly moves from his bed to his balcony.
"the past month and a half have gotten easier. im not as sad as i thought i'd be. it just feels odd to not see you sleeping in my bed when i come back from school,"
he sniffles, breaking into a sad smile.
"they put the beanie on you which made me feel better. you also wore the necklace i gave you on your birthday this year."
"so,"
he breaths loudly, adjusting the camera.
"this is my last one. there is at least 51 recorded, making this 52."
"keep in mind that just because im not making these, doesnt mean i stopped loving you. i will still love you and it's still growing. you're not here but yet again, you've made such an impact in my life that you didnt leave at all."
"i documented up to 52 days. i will look back at these and remember your voice again."
"i love you, eunbi. and for the millionth time, thank you for loving me back. sleep tight baby."
