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Hospital

AnimegirlJB Asked the following question:

I asked this to Nathan and Ash already, but i want to know what you would do. How would you react and what would you do if i didn't come to school for a couple of days and then you find out that I'm in the hospital due to blood loss because i accidentally cut a major vein while cutting?

.......well first I would be shocked then realized your are going over your limits with this.......*le sighs* and I would cut myself too the same as you, I would cut until I fade away.........and I would do it so you can see how much you hurt others......and don't say You don't want to hurt anyone, because if you WERE in the hospital then I'll be In my grave......Easy-pesy... People hurting....... Also I have a question for you, but before I start I'm going to say a story....a story where you image a world with this story coming to life.....

One day, I woke up. I was in my bedroom and I didn't feel to good. Because I knew that mother would come in and start yelling at me to wake the fuck up. I groaned and got up from my bed and I soon realized that I didn't shower today. I sighed tiredly, but I went to the bathroom anyway. I grabbed a couple of clothes and, before I left my room, I saw a shiny silver blade peeking out of it's hiding spot. I grabbed it rather quickly and went to continue my objection. ~TIME SKIP~ I got in the shower and sat down on the shower's floor. I sighed and I had a huge pounding headache just waiting to kill me. No, eager to kill me. I was thinking of many thing that I shouldn't be thinking at this age. I was thinking of my phobias, my past, my dreams, and my "accidents". I was tearing up with all the thoughts going over and over in my head; that I didn't realize that I grabbed the smooth, sharp silver blade. Once I saw the blade, I started to cry. I knew what I wanted, but the voices are arguing again. More like screaming AT me. I cried even harder, I couldn't help it, I was tearing up like crazy. I was, also, getting angry. My depression was controlling the anger, happiness was nowhere to be found, fear was coming then going once a moment or two, but anger was trying to take control over my body. I couldn't think anymore, my right hand forced the blade to go through my left hand's wrist. I teared up in pain, but continued the cutting. I forced my hand to go right and then the blade fell out of my hand. The shower's floor was coloured in red, my legs were covered in red, my belly and hair was covered in red, my hands were covered in red, and my eyes were red. I winced at the pain of the water dropping on the wound. Blood was oosing though the cut, my vision was blurry and my mind was pounding harder than before. I started to giggle because I was loosing blood, I was loosing the sight of light. My eyes grew heavy and mother came in about to yell, but started cry at the sight of me, all bloody and weak. Mother quickly came to my helpless body and started to cry if I was ok. I looked up at her weakly and said, "Mamá, no necesita llorar por mí. Estoy haciendo esto, porque quiero ayudar a deshacerse de un problema......." Then everything went dark. I woke up moments later in a white hospital bed. I see blurry doctors talking to blurry nurses. Then mother comes running in crying and screaming if I'm ok, if I'm alright, if I'm going to die. She was caught by one of the doctors and the doctor started to say things I didn't quite catch. I saw five people standing behind mother, I couldn't make out who they were. Then everything went black again...........

Translation: Mom, you don't need to cry for. I'm doing this, because I want to help you get rid of a problem.......

So now I have a question for you........ Will you be there if I was in the hospital? Or would you be laying down six feet under the ground for me?........so will you?