Fading From Memory

Prologue: Diary Page #1

I never thought that my life could be so worthless but so meaningful at the same time. Sure, I have what I need, but what about what I want? I have the grades, the best friend and the popularity. But the one thing I don't have is Jonas, the one thing I truly desire. Even though I have him on a friendship basis, I want him to be more than that. I want to be more than that to him, too. But alas, thanks to fate, he has someone else more special to him.

Nicole, cheerleader and soccer star. That was the girl who had taken my chance with Jonas away.

But I suppose it was also my fault.

See, in the second grade, before I liked or even thought about liking Jonas, he confessed his true love to me and I rejected him. Whether that be because I had my eye on Jackson Trent or because I thought he had cooties. Of course, now I'm smacking myself in the face for not realizing my feelings sooner. And by sooner, I mean by Freshman year of High School when Nicole first moved here. That was when he became entranced by her good looks and sporty attitude.

Although we stayed best friends, I always duck out when I see Nicole coming our way. Knowing that they would only gush over each other like Middle Schoolers that were deep in "love". But to be quite honest, I don't know if he's really in love with her and vice versa. Secretly I hope not, because that means I've fallen for someone I cannot have.

Besides losing my best friend to a girl who came out of nowhere, I have other problems too. Nothing major, just the fact that my mother would rather me go to Harvard rather than NYU.

New York City, the one place that I actually enjoyed our annual family vacation. The hustle and bustle of the city just makes me want to walk around for ages, not minding the blisters that would form because of it. Even the car horns make me feel as though I am stuck in the middle of a movie or stuck into Carrie Bradshaw's shoes. It was the one place that made me feel like I belonged, even though I was amongst over nine million people.

It was a change from the slow paced, bland composition of our town.

But Harvard is a good school and all, but I doubt I would ever get in. My sister barely made it into Columbia, so how on Earth am I supposed to reach Harvard? My mother has already began my application process for me, giving me all the required paperwork to fill out and she as even applied for scholarships.

But one thing she doesn't know is that I have already applied to NYU.

Once she does find out, she's going to kill me. So keep that in mind if you hear of a body being found on the news, it will probably be mine.

Senior year stars tomorrow, and I'm not ready for the last year before flying the nest. I barely even know how to do my laundry, and soon, I'll be on my own making my impression on the world and that terrifies me.

But for now, I should get some sleep...

Night.

Love,

Lucy ♥

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I hope you enjoyed this little blurb of the beginning of my story! This is an original idea, so I don't really know where it's going to go from here but I have some plot points that I really want to hit, so I'll probably write along those main points. Lol

But yeah! If you enjoyed, follow, comment and vote! 

Oh! And here is a short explanation of how this book is going to work, every couple of chapters I will switch to this format. Where it's sort of a like a journal entry or diary page, etc. and it just gives what she thinks about the recent events. Usually there will be nothing actually happening in these types of chapters, mostly just her thinking process which will be more useful in the future. But the other chapters will be in first person and focus more on what's happening in that moment and how she immediately feels about it. If that makes sense... xD

Love,

♥amber rose♥