Truly, Madly, Deeply

Chapter Five

I pulled into the car park at Thorpe Park at 10am as Lottie put her shoes back on. We both seemed to be so excited for today. Last night, I had discussed the whole situation with my mum once Lottie had gone to bed and she agreed with her. My mum was planning on saying something that night as that is how everyone felt. Honestly it made me feel like absolute rubbish. I couldn't believe that I had been so selfish and had been using them.

We spent the entire day there and had a KFC for dinner as that was also in the theme park. We went on every single ride as we both loved theme parks. We had an amazing day although I was sick 2 times after eating. I dropped her home and she was so thankful for the day. I promised that we would plan to spend the whole day together at least twice a month.

When I got home, I had to rush to the toilet once again as I felt bile rising up through my throat. I hated being sick and it was made ten times worse as I was on my own.

I didn't have any work the next day, so I decided I would just stay in all day and chill. I woke up with the all too familiar feeling of bile rising again. I rushed to the toilet and that was when I realised that my period was late.

I looked at the calendar on my phone to check what the date was - the 12th November- 3 weeks late. How did I not realise sooner?

I couldn't stop staring at my phone. What would I do if I was pregnant? Would Harry stay with ne? How would my mum react, even worse, how would Louis react? All I these thoughts race through my mind and made me even more anxious.

I raced out if the front door and down to the local pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test. As I got out of my car, I pulled my good over my head and put on my sunglasses so that I wouldn't get noticed. I got the test as quick as possible and raced back to the flat.

The time taken waiting for the yet seemed like hours. I was getting more anxious by the second. Every ten seconds I would lose my breath as I kept thinking about my future. Was the test going to be positive? Would my life change forever? Was I going to become a mum? All of these ran through my mind until the alarm on my phone rang, telling me it was time to look at the test.

I hesitantly walked over I the counter where I had left the pregnancy test and squinted my eyes. I felt so anxious and that didn't help with the sickness I already felt. I took a deep breath and looked at the test.

Positive.

I leant my back against the wall and slid down it until my knees were by my chest. I buried my head into my hands and started crying. What was I going to do?

I didnt know how i felt abouthis whole situation. I wasn't upset, I was happy because I have known for a while hat I want children with Harry. But on the other hand I didn't know how much it would change my life. Would I be able to carry on with my work? I love my job and dont want to give it up, but if a child is involved I know I have to do whatever it takes. That's when I knew I had to talk to someone about this and I would have to talk to that someone over a small screen.

I grabbed my phone off of the counter and text Harry

From: Belle

Hey babe, are you busy? xoxo

From: Harry

I'm just about to go and do an interview. Are you okay? xx

From: Belle

Ok. Skype me as soon as you can xoxo

My heart sunk in my chest. I needed to talk to someone about this right now. I knew he would probably be busy, but I was still hoping that he would be able to talk to me now. I decided to try to get some more sleep before he called me, so I went and led on the couch and drifted into a deep sleep.

I was woken up to a ringing sound coming from my iPad. I hope this is Harry. I immediately pressed the accept button when the screened showed that he was calling me. I couldn't help but smile when his face showed up on the screen.

"Hey baby, are you okay?" He sounded panicked.

"Hey babe. How was your day?" I tried to avoid his question because I wasn't ready to tell him something that would change his whole world forever.

"It was okay. A bit hectic with interviews but I'll live. Was your day good?"

I hadn't quite decided if it was a good day or not yet, but the positives outweigh the negatives, so I guess it's classed as a good day. "Yeah, it has been" I said with a smile on my face. "How are you?"

"I'm fine, so tired though" he said with a small chuckle. "How are you?"

"I bet you are tired." I laughed back. I still wasn't ready to tell him, not yet. I needed a few more minutes to build up the courage.

"Baby, why did you need to talk to me? I was so worried when I got your message. I thought something bad had happened."

"I'm fine, honestly."

"I hope so. I miss you so much" I loved it when Harry said sweet stuff like that. It seemed to reinforce the feelings I knew we already had for each other.

"I miss you too" I hate it when Harry goes away. I feel like a part of me is missing and although I get to speak to and video call him, it still doesn't feel right. I couldn't help the tiny tear that rolled down my cheek.

"Baby, please don't cry. I hate seeing you cry, especially because I'm not there I cuddle you" his face filled with concern. "Ill be home before you know it. Only 2 weeks"

I tried to smile, but it didnt seem to make me feel any better. Two weeks was still two long weeks without Harry. Without the boy who I love so much and spend so much time with. I took a deep breath and stopped crying. I needed to tell him something and I needed to tell him now. This whole conversation had me distracted and I had completely forgot the reason why I wanted to talk to him.

"Harry, there was a reason why I wanted to talk to you." His face immediately dropped and he looked terrified. All of the colour droned from his face and he cleared his throat.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" I have never seen him so anxious before. It was quite cute seeing him this vulnerable.

"I.... Ummm..... I'm"

"Your what?" Panic laced through every word.

"I'm pregnant."

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