Sad/break Up Things

sadness warning thing

Here I lay
yearning for you
I miss your touch
I miss your kisses
I miss when you played with my hair
And held me to your chest,
Whispering that it'll all be okay
That I was yours and that you'd protect me
But now look at where you are
And where I'm at
I lay in my bed at 12 am
With my eyes bloodshot
And tears streaming down my face
Still wishing you were here
Kissing my scars
Like you used to do
But now you're with someone else
Laying in their bed
Playing with their hair
Holding them to your chest
While here I lay
Debating on whether I should make one more scar or not
I decide that
I don't matter
So one scar won't make a difference...right?
Well its now about to be 2 am
And yet here I still lay
In the same spot in which we used to lay
Looking at everything and just thinking...
How did it all go to this?
To me holding a blade to my skin,debating whether I should run for the pills or not
To you laying on your new girlfriends bed,playing with her hair,holding her to your chest
How did it all come to this?