Restless

Chapter 1

[Dan]

Just like any high school there are your jocks, preps, nerds, the "emos", the outsiders and the loners. Me being a loner because I'm the only 18 year old gay guy at my school.. But the gay part is my own little secret. No one needs to know that.

I trudge my way through the hallway as my last class of the day had just ended. Thank God I can finally go home.

" Hey Loser." I heard from behind me. Fuck, I mentally curse. I try to just shyly slide past them trying to be invisible just like I always am..

But no.

"Ah ah ah. Come here " One guy said as another grabbed my bag pulling me back against my locker.

"You know what lads. Lets not beat him up today." The first guy, Kyle said.

"What?" The three others said in usion.

"He can deal with the fact that no one likes him. And that he's a worthless piece of shit." Kyle said. I wasnt taken back one bit. This is an everyday thing.

Being beat up, called names, told I'm not worth the space I take up or the life i have. Its become so bad that in the past 4 months I've actually started to believe them. I've become so unhappy with myself.

"Yeah you're right. Ill just deal with it " I said to them as I walked off to the buses.

Getting home was the best part of the day. To me it was because I got to watch the one person who could make me smile.

AmazingPhil.

He's a great person and we have everything in common. But there's just a two problems. He lives half way across the country. Plus,

He has no idea I even exist.

Yes, the one person that makes me the slightest bit happy has no idea that he's doing that.

Everyday after school I watch his videos so I can rid the horrid memories of that school day. Thank God I'm almost done with school.

I make my up to my room, mumbling a quiet hello back to my mum not wanting to tell her how my day went. I drop my back at my door not wanting to deal with the homework I had been given.

I slouch against my headboard, grabbing my laptop from underneath my pillow.

As it's like an instinct, I go straight to YouTube and type in AmazingPhil. He had just uploaded 1 minute ago. I smile to myself knowing it's probably another weird video.

I watch contently as whenever he laughs or makes a stupid joke I always smile. Finally the video ends and as I start to close put of it, his voice appears through my ear buds.

" One more thing guys. I'm going on holiday so that means no new videos for two weeks. I'm sorry. I love you guys! Bye!" Then the video ended.

Two weeks with out a new video.

Ill be in hell.

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Okay so this went pretty well. kinda. My first part that I had published got deleted and I almost died but I like this one a lot better.

I hope the next chapter will be better. it's hard for me to put my thoughts and ideas into words. so I apologize in advance if it not good.

All the love. xx.