Second Chances (on hold)

Chapter 1

3 weeks later:

I woke up screaming, I had a nightmare that I lost Alex. It hit me like a wave a bricks, my nightmare is just reality. I bit my lip and my vision blured, I will not shed a tear I promised myself that I would get through today with out him. That promise was soon broken, because on my nightstand was the picture of me and Alex. His shaggy dark brown hair was wet and matted down to his head his bright green eyes shined with laughter. His tan arms were wrapped around me, he was kissing my cheek, I was laughing. My mind flashed me back to that day:

" Come on Aust, just get in the water." I smiled and looked down at him, I loved it when he calls me Aust it's like his own personally nickname for me. Alex was lying on his back in the river just floating above the water. I was on a blanket soaking up the sun, reading a book. My best friend kiara was taking pictures of just about everything while her boyfriend kevin was playing with her hair.

" No way am I getting in, unlike you some of us prefer to stay dry." I said while gesturing towards my clothes.

"That's it, I'm coming." Alex grumbled, I quickly stood up, and started backing away.

My hands where up like I was surrendering, "Please, no!"

He laughed, "Come on Aust, give me a hug!" He ran up to me and I ran screaming, he finally caught up to me and gave me a big bear hug and kissed me right on the cheek, 'snap' Kiara took a perfect picture of us like that. Alex leaned down to my ear and I felt his hot breath,

"I love you, always and forever, I promise."

Tears fell down to my cheek, he said he would love me forever. Who knew forever would end so soon. My hand went up to my cheek, where he kissed me a hundred times before. Those kisses have been washed away long ago though with my tears, and they are never coming back. I picked up the picture and cradled it to my chest. I held onto it tight, like if I hold onto the picture just tight enough, he'll come back.

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I pulled up in the school parking lot. I checked myself in the mirror making sure there is no left over tears. My blue eyes shone with sadness, my blonde hair is pulled up in a pony tail, I'm wearing my favorite old jeans and a sweat shirt. Appearance doesn't matter to me anymore. I let out a sigh and think, okay Elizabeth today is the last day of junior year here, try to go through the day without thinking about him.

The halls were filled with a bunch of teenagers running around happy that summer is about to begin in a couple of hours, hoping that the day will go by fast. Me, I'm just hoping that I can get by today, without him here. I walked into my first period class, math. I sat in my usual spot and ignored all the pointing and whispering, after two months you get use to it. The class was over crowded, every seat was filled. Well every seat but one. The hallow empty seat next to me, no one dares to sit there. I try not to look at it, because every-time I do I expect to see him there smiling at me like I'm the only person in his world.

"Settle down class!" Mrs. Gardner yelled, I looked up at her and saw her staring at me with pity in her eyes. That is how the rest of my day went. That is how the rest of my life will be.

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"Liz wait up! Jeez slow down where's the fire?"

I turned to face my best friend, Kiara. She laughed at her own joke then saw the angered expression on my face. "Look liz you have been ignoring me for two months. Can we just please talk?" I gestured my hand for her to continue, she sucked in a big gulp of air so her cheeks where puffed up, and then sighed really loud.

"Okay, don't get mad. Me and Kevin have been talking and we think you need to get out more and well... we..." Oh please no, I was boiling with anger already, She fiddled with her camera, then quickly finished,

"setyouuponadate." I barley caught what she said she said it so fast, and it sounded all jumbled together. My face redden with anger,

"You," I jabbed my finger at her shoulder, "Think I need to move on and date another guy!? It's only been two month, Kiara, two months! You have the nerve!" I threw my hands up and walked away.

"Liz, we have practice today, you already missed to many practices and if you don't come today they are going to kick you off the cheer squad so you cant perform next year!" She yelled at me I ignored her, and jammed my keys into my car. Cheer was the old me, now it doesn't matter to me anymore. That was back in the days when I tried to be the cute popular girl, that was back when I thought I had everything.

I pulled up in my drive way, and slammed the front door shut. I turned and faced my four brothers and my parents. Uh-oh this can't be good if they all are together like this, considering three of them are married and moved out beside my brother Trey who is 18, a year older then me. They all stared at me with concern in there eyes. I gulped, I do not want to hear what they have to say.