My Mother's Boss (BoyxBoy) [Polyamory]

Chapter Twelve

{Chapters Twelve}

You know that moment when you do something and can only think of what you're doing in that moment? When all other thoughts fall away and all you can think about is the moment you're in. It's a great feeling, until the moment is over and reality crashes down on you.

"Oh no," I mumble when I pull away from Jer. I can't read his expression but that's the last thing on my mind. I mean, it's just a kiss, it's not like I cheated on Ian but I shouldn't be having these thoughts in the first place. I should be thinking of Ian, not wondering if Jer enjoyed the kiss.

"Oh," Jer hums, understanding flooding in his golden eyes. I still can't tell if he's mad, weirded out, or otherwise and it's beginning to freak me out. The only solace I get is the fact that I won't have to see this man again after another two days, so if he gets mad I won't have to awkwardly stay at my mom's work while he glares at me or something.

"I'm so sorry," I say immediately, worried about his reaction. His expression gives nothing away still and it gets to the point that I just want to demand he tell me what he's feeling.

"It's okay, Levy." He assures and I stare at him in surprise of his calm, almost amused tone.

"What?" I ask, dumbfounded. He laughs a bit and it eases my nerves a bit to hear the loud sound but it confuses me all the same.

"Levy, I knew when I first met you that you felt something towards me, and if I'm being honest I can feel something between us. So it's no surprise to me that you did that, I practically egged you on." He adds with an unconcerned shrug. I don't know how to respond to that, am I supposed to laugh? Tell him it wasn't his fault?

I have no idea how to react, how to respond, and it doesn't help that all I want to do is kiss Jer again. I don't know if he can read my mind or something but he must have understood what I was thinking because a small grin appears on his face and he leans in to peck me on the lips.

"What was that?" I question when he pulls away. He shrugs, his golden eyes twinkling.

"It seemed like you could use it. Plus I kind of enjoy kissing you." He adds with a smirk. I stare at him for God only knows how long before he clears his throat, glancing away from me. "Look, I know this isn't right but maybe when your assignment is over, we can talk sometime like over dinner?" I blink, once, twice, then find myself nodding.

"Uh, sure, that would be nice." I mumble stupidly, giving no thought to Ian, or the fact that this is my mom's boss for that matter.

"Well great, look I have to get going but I'll see you soon. It was nice having lunch with you, Levy." He adds before leaning over to kiss me lightly on the cheek. "I'll see you soon, love."

With that Jer leaves me alone with my thoughts. Thoughts that immediately go to Ian, poor Ian. I can't be with Ian if all I can think about is Jer. It's not fair to either of them if I do that.

The obvious choice would be to dump Ian, considering I know I'll always have stronger feelings for Jer than Ian. But how could I do that to him after learning what his last boyfriend did? If I broke things off with him it would destroy him, and I don't think I could do that to him.

I sigh and leave the mall, deciding I need to talk to Lydia about all this. However, when I text her to ask if I can come over to talk, she doesn't reply. I assume she's either out with Victoria or is in the midst of being lectured by her parents. So rather than go to Lydia's I just drive around for a bit both to think and clear my thoughts.

Eventually I go home in defeat because it is getting late and Lydia still isn't answering any of my messages. I park next to mom's car and go into the house but freeze halfway up the stairs when I hear Mom talking to who I assume is Dad.