So there I was feeling alone and forgotten. I knew nobody knew about how I really felt,as if I was just a wall with a smile on it. Or that's how I see my self. You see I have ADHD and I suffer depression. My friend know that I have ADHD, but not even he knows I have depression or cut myself.
The reason I cut myself is because I feel outcast, but no body knows. I am really well known around my school for good or bad things. My friend just says I have a reputation. I act very fun in school and lots of people like me. You probley wonder why I cut myself now.
Well my father has gone to jail 3 times for DUI. He now no longer lives with me and lives with his parents in Michigan. You see I live in Indiana. I know it's not to far but it is sad because I dont get to see him much. My new, well not new but my step father is very abusive.
My step father AKA , he hits and yells at me all the time. I have a little brother he is really my half brother but my step father abusive him to, he is 6. He acts nice when he is home with my mother, but when she's gone he will get on my ass over the littlest things.
I also have 2 step brothers, but they do not live with us. I also have a real brother his name is Monty. Monty is very mean to me and also abusive me as well. He is a fresh man in high school, and I am a 7th grade middle schooler.
My brother Monty gets away with anything and my step father does not care. I rember a time where derick was yelling about Somthing and he thought it was me. My brother said that it was him , and it was. As soon as my brother said that derick lowered his voice and said dont do it again. If I did Somthing like that he would chew me out about it.
I feel as if only person that really cares about me is my mother, Alice. She does not know I cut and if she did she would be very very worried about me. I am also suicidal and feel if I do kill myself only my mother would truly care. My little brother would forget on a week. Derick would be happy. Monty wouldn't care at all. The only that would is my mother.
