Writing in Reverse

The Battle with Technology

Island Rush was the first story I was writing on Wattpad and was planning to finish.  With my history with computers, that could be kind of risky and it turned out to be.  I consider it a curse. 

There is just something about me that makes technology seem to want to rebel against me.  It's always been like that.  Whether the computer freezes for long periods of time, or my work for school getting deleted for school somehow, to the Internet randomly stop working....  That always happens and still does.  It will just stop cooperating with me and do whatever it wants; technology has a stubborn mind of it's own and it doesn't matter where I go, that technology curse follows me.

So now I have no patience at all with technology so that makes it that much better.  It's actually kind of funny; I'll have to leave a room or the computer if the Internet's not working then when I'm gone, it will start working again.  I don't get mad at stuff like that often.  But technology just gets to me and I don't have the patience for it is all.

That was why I was very careful every time I posted a chapter.  I usually wasn't at fault with whatever went wrong but it would often happen randomly for no reason.  Being still somewhat new to Wattpad, I made mistakes when writing my story.

I remember writing a chapter and half way through it, the computer shut down out of nowhere.  I worked all day on it and by that point, I shouldn't have been surprised.  I've written school papers before and had the same thing happen. Even worse, once when when I wrote a long school paper and was about to push the print button, the computer would freeze or die or even just cancel me out of Microsoft word and I'd have to rewrite the whole thing.  At that time, it wasn't a habit to constantly save my work and that was something I would have to get use to though it took awhile. 

With writing papers for school, it takes me literally all day; I'm slow with writing them and try to make it flow perfectly enough.  I don't know what it is about papers or reports but I feel I need to do them just right.  So after sitting on my bed, writing a school paper all day, you can bet I'll get mad when it's just gone.  Seriously, just gone for no reason out of nowhere. At the end of a long day and that happens where you are then restarting your paper at nine at night, you should understand how technology is now a common enemy for me in a way. 

I also wrote a chapter where it was very hard for me to get into Janice's head for some reason.  It was early on in the story and I just couldn't see to get her character right for some reason that day.  Anyway, I would write it, not like it, and delete it because it didn't feel like I was writing through Janice - and it needed to.  So I'd start over and rewrite it until I got it right. 

By the time it was done, I felt so accomplished....  I was excited to finally post it.  It was done, it took hours, and it was perfect after all those tries... then the Internet goes down and I can't get back to where I was.  I didn't save it yet.  I had to rewrite the whole thing - again!  And this has happened several occasions to the point where you could just blame me for it because I expect technology to backfire on me.  I should be prepared for this stuff so when it keeps happening, that's when it starts to be my own stupid fault.

These are just few of the many times where incidences like this has happened.  And I can't tell you how impatient I get with technology now because of that.  I have seriously had to walk away from the computer otherwise I felt as if I would have smashed it.  Nothing gets my temper going like a computer.

I laugh in irony now when I notice how little technology I tried to involve in my stories, Island Rush especially.  It was like I was on a break too, far away from reality and where technology would be haunting me.  What better place to be free from it than an Island? Maybe it was a self-conscious escape for me too!  Ironically, it was being creating through writing on a computer.