Realising you like someone is the scariest thing in the entire universe, at least for me.
There's nothing more terrifying than that moment when you admit to the seven winds that that person might be more than just a normal friend, admitting it out loud makes it real, it's no longer something you think about, the moment those words come out of your mouth, that exact moment you ear yourself saying it - it changes everything.
For me, it takes a long time to say it out loud, I might be thinking about it since forever, I might even be dreaming of it, but admitting it? Ah, that's another story.
When you realise that you can't look at that person the same way, you can't stop thinking about that person, you can't spend your day without that person, that person becomes your everyday thought, that realization makes me want to run away and escape such crazy thoughts.
There's nothing scarier for me than falling in love, if that's even how I should call it. It gets messy and complicated. And feelings get confusing, nothing is no longer black and white, or clear as water. There's a cloud around me, prohibiting me from seeing ahead. I'm blind. And there's nothing to guide my emotional body.
God, I sound crazy. But this is how I feel. Confused, nervous, blind and, most of all, completely lost.
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By the way what do you think about these songs released this week? So proud of Troye.
