Void

Fighting battles

There's a bottle of sleeping pills on the side
Music blasting from the earphones
Trying to silence the mind
Past unfolds itself
Making the future unpredictable
And present shaky
Nothing feels the same or even right
Every night is a constant battle
Battle for survival
Opening your contacts
You slide through tons of names
But you still feel alone
As you realise
Nothing feels the same or even right
You question everything.
While everyone's sleeping
You're fighting with your demons
They're consuming you
It's four in the morning now
Your eyes hurt
So does your mind
Everything spins around
Like always you wait to be found
And just like every night
You pop a pill
Let it down your throat
You hoped it would be different
But you're alone, alone with your mind
and darling that's so very dangerous
Only if they knew
Knew, what games your mind plays with you
Knew, how many times your pillow has let you cry on it
Your thoughts aren't sad anymore
They scare you
You never knew you were capable of thinking all this
And that my love is what depression is
And you're way to deep in it.