Secrets // Matthew Espinosa

Chapter One: My Story

I wake up to the sound of my alarm ringing at me to wake up today. Today is my first day of school. So who or what cares about me, I'm like the invisible girl here without him. Actually, I'm nothing without him. I used to be a little popular but when he left for Magcon, I just started to slowly fade away from popularity. He left me on the week of our friendship anniversary if that's even a thing around here...

I get up and do my normal routine I the morning for school. Shower, Brush my hair, Brush my teeth, Find clothes to wear, Maybe a little make up too.

I shower for about 15 minutes or so, then I brush my medium long light brunette hair, brush my teeth which is hard considering I have braces now, now the second to last thing to do is find clothes. I dress up in a loose white and black sweater that says 'Squad Goals' and a pair of dark blue jeans, then my maroon vans. My make up... Maybe natural? Or dramatic!? (Take my note of sarcasm here)

"Hey Cameron. Wake up or your gonna be late"

"But, I don't wanna. I'm dreaming about her again"

"Are you kidding me? Her?! She looks like a barbie"

"Your just saying that because she looks prettier"

"You! You just! Oh my god! I'm going to kill you."

"Oh really? Try me sista"

Right then, he just ticked me off. That boy is going to end up like Humpty Dumpty. And we all knew how that turned out for the egg.

"AAARRGGGGG AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!"

With that, he almost turned out like that. Just with scars I did on his arms. His arms are just like mine.

Scars.

I never told anyone that secret. I tried to kill myself.

*Flashback*
"I'm never going to be pretty! Like those idiots! They wear make up! Beautiful clothes! Why can't I be like them?!?! Why Matthew... FORGET IT!"

"Karisma, please. Let's just talk this-"

I ran up stairs and shut my bathroom door shut then grabbed my razor and slit my wrists for how many times I did this or that. I also took my medication pills then tried opening them but I just couldn't. It was too late because Matthew opened the door and tried to drag me out and he did.

I remember him grabbing me by the waist and trying to lock me in a room. He succeeded. I was crying so hard because I had almost killed myself but I failed while I was crying he called an ambulance and my mother. I still tried to get out of this. And when I did, I ran as far as I could to get away and hid. The next day I saw posters of me hung up basically everywhere. I tried grabbing them all off and right then a police officer caught me as the girl in the picture and took me in. When I saw Matthew the next week while I was still in the hospital he told me to forgive him but I couldn't. I cried myself asleep back then while I stayed in the hospital.

I wanted to die. Just because I wasn't pretty enough. And now when my brother brought that up, I just wanted to actually kill him for what he said.
*End of Flashback*

I feel light headed right now... Like I'm gonna... Gonna... Faint. Then all I saw was my world fading around me and all I heard were sirens from far away coming closer each second.

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