Hey lovies! Once this actually gets views/votes im going to go back and edit but im just going to see how chapter 1 looks and start from there
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Lonely.
That's one word to describe me. In fact, it's the only word to describe me.
I've experienced loneliness my whole life; the day my father left, the day my boyfriend of three years cheated on me, and even when my fish, Professor Chubbington died. But I had never felt lonelier than I do right now.
Moving to California the day before my first day of senior year is probably the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I have always been absolutely terrible at making new friends. I've only had two friends since fifth grade and today was the day I had to say goodbye to them. Now I have to try even harder to make new friends. A new school where everyone has already known each other for years. A new school that's probably filled with overly tan and fake people that think they're better than everyone else.
I have always been super close to my mom and younger brother. When my father left, she was able to take good care of my brother, Brendon and I. Granted, she has an amazing job that pays well and that's exactly why we're moving to the other side of the county so she can manage the new branch.
Besides my two best friends, Kayla and Max, I wouldn't miss Maine very much. The entire state is filled with bad memories about my father leaving, and bad childhood memories. A new start was something I desperately needed. My mother even suggested that she would help me find my own place so I could finish up my senior year with my best friends because I'm eighteen. Max and Kayla were totally up to this idea but I resisted the offer. I just needed to get out of that state, out of that small town. Max and Kayla's crying as we said our goodbyes flood through my mind and I'm upset all over again. We promised to stay in contact though.
I have to throw my hair up into a pony tail because my hair long hair keeps tangling as the wind blows through it as my mother drives. I hate it when my hair is knotty or in the least bit. For the rest of the ride from the airport to the new house, I fall asleep.
My mother shakes on my leg to wake me up from my nap and I hate her for doing so. I've been absolutely exhausted for the past week and I have gotten almost no sleep in the past three days.
"Do you like the new house?" I hear my mother ask. We haven't even walked inside yet and we were leaning against the trunk of my mother's new car. Brendon had already started talking to a kid who looked like they lived across the street from us. I have always envied that Brendon can make new friends so easily. When I try to make new friends, I scare the people off because I'm an awkward potato.
"It's not home." I sigh. The house looks slightly larger than our old one back in Maine. Seeming as it is in the west side of Los Angeles the house must have costed a fortune. I'm sure that my mother's promotion must have a huge pay raise so she could comfortably afford this. The house is slightly larger than the one that we left in Maine. The new yard is also much bigger. The house itself looks really cute and I become excited to find out what the interior house.
"Just give it a chance, Bridgette." She said. My mother is right, like always. This new house and new state and new school and new people could mean a new life. I can finally relieve myself from all of the old memories.
I agree with her as I start unloading all of our boxes out of the trunk. As I walk up the porch steps, I take deep breaths. "In with the new, out with the old. "I repeat to myself.
And with that, I walk inside.
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okay well i really hope that wasnt too sucky but tomorrow im probably going to look back at this and cringe lmao. PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS VOTE AND COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!! if you're reading this comment your favorite lyrics of all time and who sang them......
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