It was just another normal day of misery. Going to school, getting made fun of, coming back home, and sliding that one piece of metal across my flesh.
They tell me to stop that it solves nothing, but what would they know? They're not in my position so they have no idea how it feels.
I wiped away the blood from my arm and pulled down the sleeves of my grey sweater. Heading out of the bathroom and down the stairs I found my mom making dinner. After that incident my mom refused to go to work so my dad had to have two jobs.
"Hi sweetie how are you?" She asked sadly glancing at the red that bled threw my sleeves.
"I'm fine." I gave her a small fake smile and she sighed sitting down in front of me.
"You need help Daisy and me and your father got some for you." She explained.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Honey we got you help, we have people who went through things similar to you and now they're on top of the world." She smiled sadly at me taking one of my hands in hers on top of the table. Even before I could speak the doorbell rang. My mother stood up and walked out of the kitchen pulling me with her. I hissed as her fingers touched my fresh cuts and she apologized quietly grabbing my hand and seating me on the couch.
"Hello boys come in." She sweetly gestured to the living room for whoever was at the door. I closed my eyes putting my head in my hands.
"Mother what don't you get about me." I asked my head still in my hands. "I'm gonna be okay." I told her pulling my head up. I saw 5 boys sitting on the other couch and I couldn't help but notice who they were. I'm most certainly not a fan but everywhere you go they're on a billboard, magazine cover, or in every girls locker.
"That's why I got them baby, they'll help you." She replies.
"What would they know about any of this." I snapped standing up as I pushed my brown hair behind my shoulder.
"Fame doesn't only come with good packages honey." She said.
"I couldn't give two flying shit about this band or getting better." I spat.
"It's already been arranged, your gonna live with them for a few weeks and they will help you." She explained sadly once again. I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not gonna get better mom your only making it worse." I told her harshly.
"Yes you will. I'll make sure of it." She said.
"Do you think a few fucking weeks will 'help'!" I screamed. "Have you seen me yet! Look at me! I'm covered in scars! I have nobody there for me! And it all happened because of that stupid man! I've been like this for 3 years and you think a few weeks would make everything better!" I shouted at my innocent mother.
"Daisy you need to do this please, just try for me, for your father, for Anna." She pleaded me. If your wondering Anna is my little sister. She's only 5 and I love her more than anything on this planet.
"Don't bring her into this." I said through clenched teeth.
"Daisy she wants you to get better, she's gonna need you soon." My mother argued. In all honesty I knew my mom was right. I knew that I should do this not just for me but for Anna.
"Only for Anna." I stated harshly. My mother smiled and hugged me but I didn't return it. I stood there as her arms wrapped around my fragile figure.
"What's all the yelling about?" Anna questioned coming down the stairs. I pulled away from my mother slowly walking over to Anna. I bent down on my knees so I was eye level with her.
"Anna I have to leave for a little while." I told her placing a hand on her shoulder.
"What why?" She asked.
"I'm gonna get rid of my boo boos okay, and ill be good as new when I get home." I tried to be as happy as I could.
"I don't want you to leave." She whimpered tears filling her grey eyes.
"I don't wanna either Ann but i'm going to get better, i'm gonna get better for you." I told her as my eyes also filled with tears that were yet to fall.
"How long?" She whispered as a tear fell down her cheek.
"Not long, ill be home before you know it." I shakily explained choking back a sob wiping away her tears.
"O-Okay. But promise me one thing." She cried quietly.
"Of course." I replied as tears slowly slid down my face.
"Please get better." She whispered pulling me in for a hug. I nodded in the hug as tears also fell down my face at a quick pace and my body shook once as I let out a sob. I know I may seem to be over reacting but Anna was my rock that held me up all this time. I know she's young and that may seem silly but it's the truth.
"I love you Ann's." I whispered closing my eyes enjoying our hug.
"I love you too Daisy, come back a boo boo free flower and we can start over." She said pulling away smiling through her tears.
"I will, I promise you." I lied. Because I know that I won't get better. But I am gonna try, im gonna try for Anna. She smiled at me
through her tears releasing me from her grip. I stood up pulling down my sleeves to wipe the tears away from my face. I turned to face all the boys who had sorrow written across they're faces. "I'm gonna go grab something real quick." I muttered walking back up to my room. I opened my closet grabbing my dark red hoodie that me and Anna made a while back and slipped it over my grey shirt. I also grabbed my small backpack and shoved different articles of clothes into it along with a pencil sharpener, my MacBook and charger, phone charger, deodorant, purfumé, and all my makeup. I threw the backpack over my shoulder and made my way out of my room. I walked down the stairs and entered the living room giving my sister one last hug. "I'll come back a new person babe, I'll try my hardest." I whispered into her hair. She nodded and pulled back I kissed her forehead. I stood back up straightening out my backpack before turning towards those boys.
"Ready?" Louis sweetly asked and I nodded in response following them out the door after giving my mom a hug.
"Tell dad I said bye." Was all I said before the door shut.
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miserable // n.h
Fanfiction❝ Being happy meant everything to her. Except, she didn't know how to become it. ❞ I guess this is the part where I tell my story, yeah? Well, my names Daisy Willow. I live in Dublin, Ireland with my mom, dad, and little sister Anna. I guess yo...
