This is a book about me. A 14 year old girl who is depressed. I have two other accounts, but I'm not telling anyone what those are.
This is my completely anonymous account where I blow off steam and release my depressing thoughts.
I listen to Twenty One Pilots, Halsey, Green Day, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, P!NK, Evanescence, Alessia Cara, Melanie Martinez, The Weeknd, My Chemical Romance, Cage the Elephant, and so much more that I can't remember right now.
On my other accounts I am cheerful and I only minimally talk about my depression, but I don't get deep because many people that I know and see everyday follow me and read those things, and I don't want them to know the real me, the inner monsters that lurk in my soul. I don't want them to see me like I see myself.
I'm fourteen, my birthday is September 5, 2001, and that's all the information you get.
I choose to remain anonymous, but you may know me. I'll never tell you who I am, because I fear that if I do you will know me and you will look at me differently than you already do.
I try to seem perfect, I make sure everyone sees me as the image of perfect.
Sometimes I'm silent, and people will ask me if I'm alright. I will answer that I'm fine, or yeah, I'm just tired.
This is a true story of my life.
When I tell you, don't message me and try to 'help' me.
Your words aren't going to magically make me all better.
I have fallen apart, and I am trying to find the pieces and I'm trying to glue myself back together.
But I will never be the same.
Once something is broken, it can never be truly fixed.
