Broken

I'm Addicted

Days, weeks and months have passed and I haven't been getting any bad thoughts as often as I usually do! And I haven't even cried, but I have only thought you about crying but it never carried out though.

I have fell deeper and deeper in love with this boy and I think I'm getting addicted to him. I just can't stop thinking about him! And it doesn't help by seeing him everyday at school and walking passed him.

I have other crushes but this one really stands out, I try to do things with my best friend to try and forget about my 'addiction' but it doesn't work because I normally end up saying his name or just him randomly popping into my mind.

I keep making myself think he's gay with his co-worker when I know he's not! Stupid right? Yeah I know! But then the thought pops out of my head and I'm in love with him again, well I don't stop loving him to be honest, I don't think I ever will.

When I go to school I'm normally in a bad mood with everyone and then I see him and I make my friend walk passed him with me. As soon as I walk passed him and see his gorgeous face my mood instantly changes, why? Because I'm in love with him, I'm so badly in love with him! I'm crazy in love with him! I'm like a druggie and he's my drug that I'm so addicted to and need it because I can't stop myself, that I need to go to rehab to get help but I don't want to because I love him that much and I don't want to stop loving him!