!NOT REWRITING BUT EDITING A LOT OF THINGS!

chapter:6 breaking down

JADE'S POV

I cant take it anymore the more I think the more I lose it

he's on my mind all the time I cant just forget him and move on he I dont know why but I think im falling in

l-love with him I cant love I dont have love what is it? how can I fix it? to the point where its safe again but how can I do it does jace have it in him to wait for me or to fix me will he stick by me for life

yeah right I doubt it I looked out the window its dark and cold I looked down back at my book no one has ever seen my drawings before I mean no one not even rain has I snatched it up flipping threw pages looking at past drawings and paintings my favourite is the one drawing of the sky just like to day dark and cold I sighed set my book on the dresser top and climbed into bed relaxing and thinking again I hate thinking the worst things comes into you're mind when you think well for me anyways I closed my eyes slowly drifting into the fake world of imagination

JADE'S DREAM~

the fields are so green here no brown or yellow strands of grass in sight I love it I smile and pick at the grass I feel a cool wind fly by me I look up and freeze in place the most ugliest thing is flying high its gruesome face and wings gave me chills as I hear the loud clanking sound of bones being crushed I gasp as I cant breath all the air feels like its being squeezed out of my lungs I collapse on the grass looking sideways it landed on the floor walking towards me "what do you want?" I ask it the only response I get was a high scratchy scream from it the thing cant talk I start shaking and crying. as it was just about to touch me it vanished I wake up "what the hell was that?!" I ask myself it was something from hell thats what it was I wipe the sweat from my face and sigh another day of boring school I get up search threw my closet finding a black t shirt and some red skinny jeans I collect the things I need and get ready to go "faggot get down here!" my oh so wonderful father calls from downstairs "fuck you asshole"I yell back most people would regret those choice of words but not me asshole can yell profanity's all he wants I dont give a fucking unicorn "watch what you say to you're own father" he threat's from my doorway "yes my oh so loving father of mine whatever you say" I smirk all in his face"dont be a smartass with me im really getting tired of you faggot you know what get out and never come back pack you're things and leave" he is kicking me out now fine by me I have a job at the bookstore I can fend for my self I dont need this asshole "fine you wont be seeing the queer for much longer because I dont want to see you're fatass ugly face either" I snied looking for my bag I pack all my things and head out "bye father just think of me as dead" I look away walking to school sence I dont have a car because the asshole never had the time and money to by me one "hey jade whats up?" I hear jace yell towards me "why do you have that big bag with you?" he question's finally caught up with me im not going to tell him not yet anyways I dont like when people worry about me "none of you're business fucktard!" I exclaimed "I was just asking" he held his hands up in defense "anyways I-" I hear the pounding of footsteps behind us "JACEY-BEAR!!" I hear the most loud shrill voice ever I look behind me and see the most colorful girl in the world if I wasn't gay I would so go for her she tackled jace down "i've been missing my bestfriend for so long-" she stops in mid sentence "oh hello there im amber" she holds her hand out for me to shake "nice to meet you" she smiles and lets go of my hand to get up shaking the dust of off her puffy pink skirt with skulls on them "so jace whats up is he you're boyfriend?" she asks my face goes crimson at the question "N-NO NOT AT ALL were just uh I dont know what we are" she looks between us trying to decyfer something between us "hmm okay I guess well then lets go or we are gonna be late" she jumps up and down "jeez what did you have for breakfast candy" jace rubs his temples "actually I had two snicker's bars and chocolate milk does that answer you're question" I chuckle there like siblings but they look so different "whats funny jade" jace snies "nothing the fact you guys act like siblings" I laugh "who would want to be a sibling to that" jace refers to amber while shes mopping around behind as she hears our conversation "HEY!!" she scream's "oh shit run jade just run!" jace scream's running for dear life like having the devil himself chasing after him flailing his arms like the complete idiot he his "excuse me while I mull him" she starts chasing after him

(A/N im just gonna skip to first class)

I sit down in history sighing "hey jade lets go somewhere after history like skip school today my treat" I look at him and nod my agreement "cool" he smiles I really am starting to enjoy him for some reason I mean whats wrong with me im supposed to hate him I rub at my eyes and lay my head down on the desk

*BRINNNG*

I hear the bell go off

*JACE'S POV*

I hear the bell go off I stand up and reach for my bag but for it to be taken away I look at the person who has it and quite frankly I was surprised to see jade holding it "im carrying it" he offers my heart started racing and I blush and smile like the goof I am " even thou you are stupid" jade looks away blushing "lets go" he interrupt's me eye raping him "before I change my mind" he mumbles that part towards himself

I smile again for the fourth time today I follow jade as he walks out the doorway I walk behind him getting a full view of his round ass I just want to slap it but I decide not to because I know he would be pissed off to an extent 'he's so hot and he doesn't know how bad ive fallen for him "uh do you have a car I dont drive" he blushes from embarrassment "uh yeah"I point out towards a year 09 Saturn

(A/N sorry I cant think of any cars to use right now xD)

I unlock the door to the driver's side I also unlock the passenger side I put the key in the ignition starting it up I close my door so does jade and we drive of towards the school gates I turn left and we head towards the mall of course "so jade um have you thought about us?" I point between me and jade "jace please stop I cant" I look down maybe bribe him "jade what if I told you I had the power to turn you into a demon so you dont have to suffer anymore being human" he looks dumbfounded "y-you're joking right!?" he exclaims "no im not jade but I understand you dont have to lets talk about something else" I offer "all right" he looks out the Window staring endlessly at the clouds "I like you're drawings" he froze right then and there "you how did you see it what did you see out of it"I stiffen and relax a little "well I live In hell so I use a portal to get here and back well the first time I saw it you almost gave me a heart attack when you turned around but I saw the flower one thats all" I look back at the road seeing the mall up ahead

*JADE'S POV*

thats it man I better be careful next time I really dont want anyone else to look at any of them im still kinda skeptical if thats all he saw out of it

I dont know and I dont think he is going to tell we park in an empty spot and get out walking towards the entrance of the mall and we head towards hot topic of course

(time skip sorry im just lazy to put details xD)

we now are head back to his car I bought with the money I have left I bought a new pair of skinnies and a new bracelet to hide more of all the old scars I dont want him worrying

about me I dont like the pity

well I guess I should just how the hell am I going to say this

'yeah um my dad kicked me out so if you could kindly just set me on the street' fuck no im not going to say that I will tell him to drop me off at the bookstore yeah that will work "hey fuckass drop me at the bookstore I have work" I say nonchalantly "okay princess" he snieds I stiffen and chuckle "watch it evans" I warned he drove me to borders bookstore and dropped me off "see you tomorrow I had fun princess" he smiles "yeah yeah I guess bye" I wave him as he drives away I walk in and get greeted by my overly hyper boss lanna "hi jade you dont have work today so why what you doin here" lanna asks me "well the old guy finally kicked me out" I say "and um I dont have a place to stay so I was thinking if I could sleep here for a little until I get a apartment somewhere" I look down knowing she's giving me a pitying look "sure jade just make yourself comfortable" she smiles "thanks it wont be for long I promise"I say she just waves it off "okay well im beat so im going to sleep I walk over to the back room where there is a bed for breaks I lay down and set all my stuff on the floor I sigh well

something's went fine today I went on a date with jace today well sort of I seriously need to stop thinking that why? im supposed to hate him not love him

i close my eyes and fall right into dream land