license to touch her

Chapter 7 (paradise to cherish)

 (paradise to cherish)

Vincent <pov-continuation' 2 years ago>

My heart beats unevenly. I can't explain it, the feeling I have right now is like a lighting volt hitting this stupid heart of mine. It is true is it? Oh good heaven, this is so gay of me...

"s-sure," see? this is all I could manage to say. Isn't it stupid?

"thank you" oh come on Vincent that is not you. You are the chick magnet among your friends yet you are now acting like an idiot with this woman in front of you?

"y-ou," stupid! Can't you just stop stammering Vincent Zach? I scolded myself in silence.. After clearing my throat I continue saying,, "you can follow me this way"

I headed to my room with her at back. Even if I want to, I can't talk to her. I cannot find the right words to talk to. Since she's at my back I could freely touch my left chest and feel my heart beats. It still beats so fast.

Minutes later we reached my room. So I stop and open the door. Still she remained silent. As I opened it, I turn to her saying, "hmm, come in" thanks heaven I did not stammered now.

Before she step inside, she first turn and look at me in the eye while smiling shyly. "why is she beautiful?" I asked in my mind. As she passed by me, I smelled her expensive perfume. So sweet and delicate...

I am only man, and honestly speaking, I felt so hot right now. This is no good. Now I regretted the fact that I allow her to be here in my room. I think I needed to have a cold shower, right now or maybe after?

"I am very sorry for the disturbance Mr, its' just that I wanted to breathe some air right now. And I cannot do it in my place." She said shyly while looking at the floor.

"Vincent" I said while extending my hand towards her. She then look up and see me looking at her intently.. I'm a bit nervous, yes. but thankfully I could still manage not embarrass myself.

"oh' my bad, M-r, opps Vincent'' she said awkwardly while reaching my hand for a hand shake. "by the way, I am Josephine, and thank you for accepting me here". Her voice is sweet as her face.

Hmm, her lips, is it also sweet if I taste it? What am I thinking.. Damn it."

As our hands touched I felt like there's a current that flows in my veins and I cannot name it. Minutes had passed but our hands remain attached. None of us let go. Its' as if the time had stop.

 Instead of a hand shake and then just let go, we unconsciously hold our grip with so much pressure. It's as if we want to feel something more the warm that our collide hands giving us.

From our attached hands, I slowly move my gaze up to her face. She is still looking at our hands frowning. I know she felt it too. I am sure of it. Then she did what I did, she also slowly look at me, intently. We both stare each other for I don't know how many minutes already. In her gaze I can sense something, something like she wants me to do. Well, I do. I really want to do something but its' just that I can't. Or I don't want to? Maybe I don't want because if I do, I don't know what will happen next.

It is certain that the warm we both feel right now make us want to hold our hands forever. Then later than that we both feel something, something like the gravity is pulling us to each other. And it is somewhat like there's a magic working in us.

It is my first time feeling this thing. That is why I am not familiar with it. Well, I maybe a jerk and chick magnet way back in the Philippines but right now? Right here in this moment? I don't know what is it. Attraction? Is this what they called it when you meet your match, your destiny or your forever? Oh come on. This is no good.

Our eyes are still lock in each other gaze, no one let go. Then one step, and another step, we are now close. Almost close that we could both smell each other's breath. So close that we could almost reach and touch each other's lips.

Oh this lips where I have dreamed to kiss a while ago is now beyond reach by me. One more step, just one more step then I could taste and feel this lips. Her yes, oh this emerald eyes who seems commanding me to make my move, so I did,,

I di-d, well almost did when we heard a VERY loud knock from the outside,, then everything fell apart,,,

Asha,,, why now?

(Present)

My heart still beats so fast by the look that this woman gives. Strange, yes it is. But I remain cool and reply to her while showing a very bright smile where I usually show in my class. I am good at it I swear. Hoo! I just hope so.

"oh, hello Mrs, Monteverde, I just hope all those things you have heard from your husband about us are good, eh"

She's very cheerful and lovely. I think her smiles are real and I admire her for that. But I can't still stop this strange feeling of me about her and her husbands' gaze towards me. I still have to stay away from them. I think if I'll stay close with them, there will be something that might happen. Something that I might be against off, for sure.

"of course, there all good. But can you please just call me Zahmanta" She said while eyeing us both, and then frown. Well, maybe she's wondering why me and Emily are dress like this. "how are you both anyway?" but asked. Still smiling.

It is Emily who answered her,," we are both fine, Zahmanta, but as much as we want to have a chit chat with you, we also have a mass to catch up to. Sorry." Well, that is true. Or perhaps the latter one.

"Mass?, I think I like that!" while clapping her hands. "can I go?" she said but stop when she saw her husband. "opps, rather can we go?" sweet as she is, she go and extended her arm to hug her husband, in front of us. They're so sweet.

I and Emily have no choice at all. As much as we want to go and leave them here in the resort we cannot. That would be rude. While having a quick glance with each other, we agreed. Why can't this couple leave me alone anyway? They're giving me hard time you know.

"hey, ladies, good morning." Mr. Monteverde greeted us, as he and his wife still snaked they're hands with each other's waist.

"good morning to you too, sir" we greeted back in unison. This man really is familiar to me.

"ladies, please don't be too formal, just call me Neil." He said. This couple really love each other. And I envied them. I wish I could also find someone but no. That will cause too much to me.

If I will find someone to be with and be like this couple in front of me, surely my beloved freedom will  disappear. And I think I cannot accept that. I cannot handle that? And worse I will not like that.

In Neil's response, we just replied him a smile. Smile while wishing and hoping that he will not agree on what his wife intended to do. But those smile faded as he say;

"I heard that you are both going to the church." While smiling. "can we go?" that's it. He just said it. And as much as I want to refuse, I turn to Emily and say;

"well, of course you both could. Right Em's?" I smile. Yes I smile in the outside but truth is I want to scream in protest. Why are this two so persistent?

"yeah, of course you can both go with us, so come on. We need to be hurry" she also smile dearly but I knew her. She feel what i feel. 

"Great, let go" that was Zahmanta, she seem so happy but i am not. 

Minutes later we are all in our way to Saint James the Great Parish in our town. 

AN; (unedited)