He Was The One , Well As I Thought He Was , He Was My Every Thing Or As They Would Put It My Sideline ! I Swear I Made Promises To Myself . But I Couldnt Keep Them , Well Not For Long . I Knew A Day My Heart Was Goin To Be Broken Again But I Didnt Know It Was Going To Be So Soon .. All That Night I " CRIED " .. Why ? Because He Was Suppose To Be My First " LOVE " My First " REAL " Relationship My First " EVERYTHING " ! I Remember The Night HE Said That He Wouldnt See US Broken Up And I BE(LIE)VED HIM .
A Couple Days Later I Still Wanted To " CRY " .. Why ? Because I Thought He Was Different But I Got Proved Wrong ... ' My PAIN IS NOT A GAME OR JOKE . MY FEELINGS ARE SOFT AND EASLY TO TAUGHT BUT HARD TO KILL AND HARDER TO PULL ' .
You Can't Feel It , Breathe It , Tought It , Or Plan It ! It Just Happenes Or It Just Comes But The Feeling I Had I Just Knew What Was Going To Happenin And How It Was Going To Happening . Maybe I Should 've Took The Relationship More ' SERIOUS ' And Less " OPEN " ? Or Um Maybe I Should 've Did Every Thiing Differently ??
Why .. ? Do I Feel Guilt ? Why , Do I Think It All Was My Fault ? Why Am I Cryin ? Why Am I Steady Thinkin About You ? Why Am I Still Caring ? Why Am I Wonderin If Your Okaay ? Why Am I Askin Myself Does He Care ? Why Do I Still Lovee You ??
This Is Why Im Scaried To Fall INlove !
My PAIN , LOVE , FEELINGS , ACTIONS , AND HEART Are All Different Things But All Have The Same LOVE CYCLE .
