After a while and a couple awkward conversations high school came. We started talking again and it was okay. I still loved him I tried so hard not to. I got another boyfriend for awhile but he was nothing. I compared him to James constantly. When it came down to it James was the one I talked to all night about nothing but I was still completely content. Me and that guy broke up pretty fast but I got over it almost before it even happened. James was always still on my mind. On my birthday everyone said he had a surprise I was so excited. I thought maybe he wanted me back as badly as I wanted him back. Sarah told me he didn't and my heart broke all over again. Maybe I didn't even actually want him back. It was a stupid idea to even think of having him back. When he gave me my birthday card I didn't understand why everyone had said it was a surprise. Then a small folded up piece of paper fell out of it my heart raced. It was just like back in math class when I was so scared to talk to him. My stomach was doing the flips all over again. I opened the note and read "happy (late) birthday, I broke up with you because I didn't know how I felt about you but now I do. I really like you and want to ask you one question....will you go out with me?" I stared at what I had wanted for so long and thought of how he hurt me. I looked him dead in the eyes and said "no".
