I did not want to wallow in self-pity. He was just a guy... a guy who took my virginity, the first guy I'd ever love. It wasn't like it's the end of the world. He was just a guy.
I started going out alot with my friends, I started partying and drinking. I partied and drank the pain away. I did everything to forget him and I decieved myself into thinking that I already had. I started going home late from parties so I wouldn't have to see him. I couldn't look at him without feeling an ache in my chest.
"Mallory..." I felt someone shaking my shoulder. I opened my eyes and lifted my head up. My vision blurred at first but came into focus on Sandy's face. "Nandito na tayo sa bahay niyo."
My head was still spinning from all the alcohol I drank in the party. I looked out the window of the car and saw him standing there and looking at me. Tisoy had a hard and cold expression on his face.
"Thanks, Sandy." I said before opening the door and getting out. I acted as if he was invisible. I stood by the car and waved at Sandy, she waved back at me and drove off. Naglalakad na ako papunta sa pinto nang bahay para pumasok ng magsalita siya.
"Kanina ka pa hinihintay nila tito." He said in an even tone. "Palagi ka na lang umuuwi nang late."
I massaged my aching head and groaned. "Will you just stop talking to me? Huwag mo akong sermonan, hindi ikaw ang magulang ko."
I went inside the house and he followed behind.
"You reek of alcohol." Medyo tumaas ang boses niya.
"Ano ba?" I spun to face him. "Just leave me alone! Lalong sumasakit ulo ko sa'yo."
His expression changed. For a moment he looked quite surprised. He tightly shut his eyes and an exhale passed his lips. He opened his eyes again and this time, his expression softened. "What are you doing to yourself, Mal? You're ruining yourself."
Naningkit sa galit ang mga mata ko. "You did this to me! You ruined me!"
"Mallory, I— I never meant to hurt you." His eyes were sad as they looked into mine.
"But you already did." I said in a cold tone.
He took a step towards me and I stepped back.
"No! Huwag kang lalapit sa akin." I raised my hands in front of me to stop him. "Stay away from me."
"I'm sorry." He said, almost in a whisper.
My lips lifted into a smirk. "You can take your sorry and leave me alone. I don't need it."
"I'm doing this for you, Mal."
"You know what, stop it! Ayaw ko na marinig ang mga paliwanag mo. I don't want to hear anything from you again." I didn't want to hear anymore of his excuse. He hurt me.
"Ano bang gusto mong gawin ko, Mal?" He raked his fingers through his hair. "I'd do anything you say, mapatawad mo lang ako."
"Umalis ka na dito." Matigas na sabi ko. "Go back to where you came from. Ayaw ko nang makita ka. I want you to get out of my life."
"Mallory..." He swallowed.
"O, akala ko ba gagawin mo ang lahat para mapatawad kita?" I let out a taunting smile. "Yan ang hirap sa'yo, puro ka lang salita."
I turned my back to him and walked away. I went to my room and let out the tears I'd been holding the whole day.
Tanghali na ng magising ako. I had a good sleep and thankfully, my head wasn't hurting anymore. I climbed down the bed and took a quick shower before I decided to grab something to eat. As I was walking down the hallway heading to the stairs I heard Tisoy's voice inside my dad's study room.
