Story of my life

Why!??

Why is the question we all ask ourselves.We ask ourselves why we look the way we do or why the earth has such cruel people.Why do we wake up feeling empty?Why do we have to put on a fake smile?Why do people care so much to put us down?What did we do to them?Nothing.I was a cute little girl until people had to treat me like crap.I was nice to them and I cared for them.why?Why do everyone we let get close to us or anyone we love not feel the same?why do I get hurt by the people I love the most.Why do my parents fight so much?Do they think about how we feel?They get so caught in the moment and let words slip out,They slam doors.Please go one day without arguing.We know you are not happy why can't you feel the same for me.Can't you see this is a fake smile?I guess not because you have other things to worry about.I am not talking to anyone particular just to anyone who listens.Do you hear that?Do you hear the whimpering the crying for help.People hurt themselves to relieve pain.Why?They feel alone and empty.People can not see that.They have there nails or hair to worry about.I am tired of people thinking they are better than me.Because of what?Is it because I look different or I stand out.Do I intimidate them?Is it because I have the guts to do something they are to sacred to do.I made a plan.I showed 2 of my best friends.One being a popular and one being an outcast.The popular laughed at it and the outcast agreed.I am sorry that I did not care about your stupid date and I cared about other things.In the end we are the winners.The losers,the outcasts,nerds,emos we will all win.So what if we are to quiet are loud you still know nothing about me.Before you call someone a name think about where they are in there life.Maybe that girl you made fun of cuts or is suicidal.what is wrong with you people?Maybe the band you made fun of saved my life.So if I listen to rock music I am considered an outcast or a loser.That music has meaning and gives purpose.Maybe I do not want to listen that only talks about sex or drugs.Music gives us life.There are so many questions we don't know.Stop putting on a mask and embrace who you are.You have no idea what I have been through.You know how dads and daughters have the best relationship.I lost that bond a long time ago.I still feel alone and empty.I need a hug or someone to understand.Nobody does.You wonder why I am an introvert?Because books and music are therapy.I can escape in them.I am so scared of the world.I am tired of the whispers or the looks.Do you feel satisfied?Do you feel happy knowing all of the pain I have been through.I am so happy for you to be out of my life.Do you know how many times I have been called a Bitch or a whore or slut.I get called a transgender or a boy.Ugly,fat,a tubby.That smile and laugh I make when you say that,It's fake.You wouldn't know would you because you don't know me.I am tired of the pain I would put my body through,tired of looking at myself thinking I am useless.I have to suffer but everybody does.we all are going through something and you want to make fun of that.You wanna push me in the hallway or shoulder.check me?I am done with this and I am fighting back.Stand up for what you think is right not for what everybody else thinks is right.