expecting the unexpected

chapter 21

kree pov

I paced the room with toriana and kassy a friend and my cousins  drew and tyler

"this is the first time we are all together for kree's boy trouble"drew said and they all laughed

"girl should have been here when they started"toriana said

"fuck yall I told him I told him I was getting married to maejor I was trying to get along with him to try and love him he knew this didn't he"i said stopping

"didn't he"i asked flopping on the bed

"you cant change his heart I know you want to but you cant and I think its better for him to get his feelings out there"kassy said

"i don't I don't wanna marry maejor we're friends I cant see myself as more"

"what's wrong with me"i turned and looked into the eyes of maejor

"oh this is maejor"drew said

"can I talk to you alone'he asked

the girls nodded and walked out the room

"I'm sorry"

"whats wrong with me kree"he asled

"nothing"i said

"what"

"nothing nothings wrong I just don't love you I'm to young for love fuck love I hated its hurts you and can ultimately kill you and I don't want it I don't want feelings I don't wanna be sensitive and sometimes I don't wanna be alive"i yell at him

we stood there in silence

"you don't wanna be alive" he asked

"i didn't mean that I just don't want this life I wanna be able to fall in love with you not be forced to I wanna be able to go outside and not have to wear a vest because I could die I wanna be able to know that my father and uncle will come home and not have to worry when there an hour late"i said

"you know before my mother died she said people never cry for just one thing it's a lot of things that they've been holding in"he said pointing at the bed

we sat well laid down his head on mine and his arm pulling my closer

"wanna talk about it"he asked

"its a long story"i told him

"and I wanna hear everything"he said

i told him everything including my feelings for tre

"do you wanna be with him"he asked

"i don't know i wanna make my parents happy"

"can i make you fall in love with me"he asked

"if you can"i told him

"give me some time but i will kree i know i was an ass in the beginning but i want to be the reason that you smile again"he said kissing my forehead.

"how are you gonna do that"

"wait an see but wanna watch tv"he asked

i went and saw that once upon a time was on so we watched that

"i didn't think you would actualy watch something like this"he said

"why i told you i just dressed like a tomboy"i laughed

"so whats your favorite color"he asked

"grey"i said"

'grey"he asked