My Past, My Present, My Future

Present

*breathe in and out* Okay. Before I write my future I'm going to talk about the present first.

Just before I explain what happened today, I must say that I have been dropped out of school since I was 14. I'll be 18 in 19 days, and a lot of people have told me to go back to school or get my GED and lecture me, this and that. Well I did try for a GED for a year. I didn't succeed though.
Okay.

Today.. I believe.. It feels like this is my last chance. It feels like a sign that I should at least try to get some sort of education.

I was at a birthday party and of course at a birthday party there will be some people that you've never met. Of course they are going to talk to you and ask questions.

Found out that this lady works with education and all that school stuff. So she got bugged by it how I was really pretty and that she can tell I'm smart and wants me to try. So she talked more to me about school and gave me a school website, and told me that they will teach me for free at my own pace, 1 on 1 or maybe I can do it online.
The school is 31 minutes away from where I live.

I feel like this is it.. I should at least try to do this, but I feel like I'll be shut down.

I'm applying to jobs now since I lost my job I had in October. I was working at a shirt printing company.

So that's my present..
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I wonder about my future.. So many feelings about it.