Chapter 12

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by ofcatsandwomen_

by ofcatsandwomen_

"hey, what do you need?" January asked once she stepped into my room.

"y-your pants are unbuttoned." i said quietly as she buttoned them up. "sit down." I said scooting over. She sat down and stared at me. "what did you do last night?" i asked breaking the silence.

"Really Kat?! Are we having trust issues again?"

"No its just Alejan-"

"Here we go! You actually believe a word he says?! You're that stupid?"

"N-no I'm not stupid!"

"Then why would you believe anything he says?"

"Cause i know he would never lie to me. . . What were you doing at the bar last night?"

"Having a couple drinks."

"That lead to what? Sex?!"

"don't raise you're voice at me Katrina!" January screamed.

"why not? That's all you ever do is yell at me?!" I cried.

"Shut up!" She screamed then slapped me. I slowly pulled my hand up to my face, wow she actually slapped me.

"J-January-"

"Shh, I'm so sorry baby i didn't mean to." she said pulling me into a hug, but i quickly pushed her away.

"Why must you hurt me?" I asked quietly as the tears fell.

"I don't-"

"But you do."

"No Katrina"

"Yes January! Every single time. I can never have a good time with you around. All you do is hurt me. I thought you loved me, but you're right i am stupid. You obviously don't love me, cause when you do love someone, you would never even imagine of hurting them. I actually found someone that might truly love me, but i pushed them away cause i was hung up on you. I always hear about you cheating you know how that makes me feel?" I asked.

" . . ."

"Lost, alone, horrible, unloved, not worthy of taking up anymore space in this world. I want to kill myself. Now knowing you don't love me, and that someone has moved on so i don't even have a chance with him. Nobody loves me, January. I want a gun to the head, are you happy? Was this your plan all along."

"Don't say that Katrina."

"I think its best if you just leave me alone . . . forever."

'Ka-"

"please. Now go . . . now." i said more sternly.

"Don't you dare say anything." was the last words she said to me. She left and slammed then door as i slid down the wall crying.