Just Tell Me You Love Me. ( Asking Alexandria Fan Fiction )

Chapter 16

"Katrina?" My mum asked shocked at the doorstep. I didn't say anything but just hugged her with all my might.

  "I'm so sorry mum, I love you!" I sobbed into her shoulder,  hoping she wouldnt let go.

  After a while she pulled away and brought me inside. "So why are you here?" Mum asked as ahe handed me some hot tea. I gulped the whole cup down and wiped away my tears.

"Im so sorry mummy," I said softly.

"I love you Katrina, dont be sorry." She replied then rubbed my back. "Here its late, get some rest." Mum said then led me to my old room. I crawled under the comforter, too tired to pull off my clothes.

  Through the whole night I couldnt even get a wink of sleep. Just thinking about everything I've fucked up in my life. I fucked up my whole career, no way in hell, they would ever let me back in the band. I fucked up my family, I've ripped myself away from them. And I fucked up my chances with the one I love, Cam.

"Katrina?" Mum mumbled as I crawled in her bed next to her.

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"What has been happening Katrina?"

  "I've fucked up my life in every way possible."

"How so?" Of course my mum wouldnt know, she doesnt know what the Internet is. So I told my mum the whole story starting from when I first started developing feelings for Cam all to when I ended up at the airport.

  "He kissed me and s-said he loved me, & also said that h-he couldn't leave Lindsey." I cried out the last part, and then my mum engulfed me in a huge hug.

"Shhh," Mum soothed as she rubbed my back.

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-1 Month Later-

*bing*

Cam; when are you coming back?

Me; hopefully never

Cam; I miss u

Me; Cam stop, u have lindsey

Cam; So?

Me; pls stop just stop calling me, txting me, just get me out of ur mind. I went back 2 Australia to get my mind&life straight, I need u 2 stop

Cam; ur 1 of my best fucking friends Katrina! I fucking love you dammit! I cant stop fucking thinking about u!

Me; If u actually fucking loved me, then u wouldnt be with that slut u call a girlfriend lindsey!! Get the fuck out of my life, u are destroying me. ur making my mind go crazy,  ive fucked up everything in my life when i figured out I love u!

Cam; well sorry for caring&loving  bye Katrina love you

Can't he just stop?

1 Year Later-

*Knock, Knock*

"I'll be right back," I said to John while pausing the movie and getting up to see who the hell was knocking on my door at 1 am. When i opened that door, I wish i hadn't.                                                             "Cameron?" I asked.

"Katrina, I love you so much. Please stop this pain, i need you." He said sadly. He had bags under his eyes, his skin was white as a sheet of paper, his hair was in a big mess, overall he looked like shit.

     "Cameron . . . what happened." I spoke softly not letting the tears fall. It hurt me so much to see him like this. "Come inside," I said and grabbed his arm, which was ice cold. I pulled him inside and John gave me a questioning look.

"Who's this?" He spoke harshly. Right when he said that i did a mental pray.

  "My friend Cameron," I said queitly hoping he would be nice.

"Oh . . . I'm John." He said holding out his hand and Cameron shaked it. Good sign.

 "So why are you here?" I asked handing Cam a blanket.

    "Can we talking in private?" Cameron asked. John shot him a death glare.

"Yes." I stated more as a question. I motioned Cam to follow me away from the living room and into my room.

  "Why are you here?" I asked a bit exasperated.

"What do you think? . . . I love you. And who is that guy."

  "Erm . . . my boyfriend." Once 'boyfriend' came out of my mouth Cam turned paler if thats possible.

"You have a b-boyfriend?"

   "I moved on, Cameron." I lied.

"Moved on?"

  "Yes," I said quietly.