I'm no hero I'm just a criminal

Filler (Please read A/N at the end)

Tyler's POV (OMG WHAAAAAAT)
I sigh and sit on the floor of Evan's apartment, with John, as I think of all the things that's happened. 'Okay Tyler. Let's go over everything in your head. 1. John passed out, but doesn't even remember it. 2. Evan called you and was crying and breaking. 3. I came and saw him in the floor crying and broken. 4. John woke up. 5. Evan is having an anxiety attack in the bathroom. Wait. Does he have blades in there? OH FUCK!' "Oh fuck!" I scream and run to the bathroom. I throw my body against the door. "Evan?! Evan open up!" I yell, freaking out. I panic and try to figure out a way to open the door. John walks up the stairs slowly, terrified of how aggressive I am right now. I don't like being this way, but Evan means the world to me. He's my little brother. "Evan?! Please?! Let me in!" I ask, tears falling down my face now. I hear a small click and open the door slowly. "Evan...-" "Tyler, calm down. I'm fine. Just had some flash backs of my past. Okay?" He whispers, cutting me off. I nod, and wipe my eyes. "Where's John?" He asks. I thought he was right behind me. I turn around, but don't see him. I shrug. "Hey Ev, I'm gonna go. You two seem like you can handle everything. I'll have my ear piece in if you need me though." I say, hug him lightly, then walk out. I wanted to stay but I can't. Not now. I needed to be alone right now. I rush down the stairs to my car, then drive as quickly as I can without getting hurt. I pull into the small field that has calmed me down since the first day I came to move here. I run to the middle and fall onto my knees. I scratch at the skin on my arms, causing them to bleed. 'Wow. Those just healed too' I think. This always happens when I get like this. I let the tears freely fall, screaming at the top of my lungs. I curl into a ball, trying not to go into a killing spree again. I felt my phone start to ring. I grab it, and see the name I needed the most right now. Craig. I answer. My voice shaking, unable to get a response out. "Tyler?! Babe?! Where are you?" his voice asks, full of concern. "I-I-I'm in a field 10 minutes away from Evan's house. I'm just, breaking down. Please.....help me" I whisper. He gasps, then loud footsteps. I heard the line go dead, and I see my phone die. I close my eyes, trying to shut out everything. The voices. The urges. The feelings. The voices. The urges. The feelings. "GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!" I scream at the top of my lungs, and pull my hair. "Tyler! Stop!" I hear, his, voice say. I look up, through my broken glasses and tears, and see Craig running to me. I hold my arms out slightly, and he embraces me in his warmth. I sob into his chest while he rubs my back softly. After a moment I finally calm down, and just enjoy being in his arms. He kisses my forehead softly. "Babe, are you okay now?" he whispers. I nod. Not trusting my voice to speak. He sighs and just stays with me. "I love you Craig" I whisper. He smiles. "I love you Tyler" I smile softly and hold him tighter. As if he were just a dream and would fade away any moment. "wanna go back to my place?" he asks. I nod slightly. He stands up, and then helps me onto his back. I burry my face into his neck, and enjoy his amazing smell. No one understood that because I've had such a hard life i can't help that i might be insane. My eyes start to close and i feel the darkness start to take me. 

A/N 

Hey guys, uh this is just a filler for now. i am not sure what to do with this anymore. i might just stop it now. Because i just, i dunno. i may just update when i can. but i wont really be working on this as much anymore. I'm so sorry if this is like your favorite book, but i will try to update it. I just can't do it right now. I've got a lot going on in my life and it's just really getting to me. I'll be okay, but it will just take time. i love you all, and i will see you all as soon as i can. Bye