You & I (Grayson Dolan)

The past

Dani's POV

I ran into my room and like killed my bed. Grayson followed behind me, "so Dani I believe you owe me a story"

"Yeah I guess so, anyway it was in the middle freshmen year, basically I was never like the person that's infront of you, I was heavy as in like 150 pounds, I got made fun of and bullied for it. People told me I was never gonna have a future and people would never like me because of who I was and I never understood why people said this to me when I didn't even do anything to them. They called me ugly and told me to to kill myself because there's no point in living because I didn't live up to their standards they were pretty and skinny and as for me I was an ugly fat brunette. Then one day while I was in my room it just hit me that I wasn't good enough that's when i started skipping meals lying to my parents telling them that I already ate when I was actually taking dieting pills. But the worst part was that it actually made me feel good about myself was when I started cutting myself" Grayson looked shocked, I showed him the scars on my arms.

"Baby please don't tell me" I nodded

"When was the last time you did it?" I just looked down I was so ashamed

He lifted my chin "Dani please tell me"

"Last Wednesday" he looked so upset

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because you guys all live such a perfect life where nothing happens to you, you could eat an entire meal from anywhere and have no change in your body as for me I have to make sure that I work out"

"Baby not everything is like that we don't have perfect lives love nobody does, anyway what happens after"

"So cutting myself I felt really good about it and I didn't know why, 2 weeks later and atleast 3 liters of blood later I was what everyone considered as perfect I was skinny, my mom got so concerned for my weight loss since I went from 150 to 95, I thought life would be good from there but it only got worse, people called me anorexic, it was horrible after that I fell under depression I cut myself even more, I was taking anti-depressants, I ran away from home, everyone hated me, they made up rumors calling me slut and a whore. I was at the verge of taking my life, I told myself a cut in the right spot can cause death and I was so willing to take it."

My eyes started filling up with tears

"Oh my god Dani, don't cry it was in the past" he said wiping my tears

"I was so close Grayson I can still picture the blood and pills everywhere I was so scared" I was sobbing in his shirt

"Shhh baby you don't have to continue"

"No you need to know"

"Anyway I was so close to taking my life when my little brother knocked on my door, calling me to play with him, that's when I dropped out of my trance, because I knew there was my family that would be devastated if I did something like this and I knew I had to stay strong for them"

"Good for you that's amazing that you stopped you from hurting yourself I could never imagine, what i would do now heck I might still be dating Melissa"I laughed

"Anyway about a month after that I started going to the gym and eating right to become the person I was but different, I dyed my hair blonde so I could forget about what was running through my mind as a brunette, then vine came around and that's how the ship sailed" by the end of it gray engulfed me in his arms

"Your so strong baby to do that is this why the hate comments are causing trouble for you?" I nodded

"Yeah when I see whore or slut or even anorexic that's when all the horrible memories come back and it leads to me start cutting again, I usually start cutting when I'm upset about something or I've fallen under severe depression"

"Baby I know you've been through all of this but I want you to try and forget about it, your not in Toronto your out in Cali where the good vibes are at, and I can't handle the fact that you cut yourself just about a week ago, it's heartbreaking please don't think of doing it again"

"I promise" I hugged him, he is so caring this is where I belong in Cali with Grayson