Lost In Life

The blame

Chapter 1. The Blame

"Monster!!" Tears was falling down my purple eyes, my father layed dead in front of my knees, his innocent and shocked eyes staring up at the rainy sky. The man held his blade, which was covered in my father's blood, standing a few meters away, chuckling evilly, his bloodred eyes opened and stared at me, a sharpteethed smirk on his face- Monster? Me? -he asked, faking his voice innocently-
"You killed him!! You killed my dad!!!" Tears fell onto my bloody lap, my lightly pink hair hanging over my shoulders with blood splattered over it.
"Is it my fault? You were the one who wanted this to happen." He smirked evilly at me.
"No i didn't!!"
"Oh yes you did.. Don't you remember?"
My eyes widened as a memory appeared into my brain.

~Memory~

I sat crying on my bed, my shirt ripped up and a deep scar was cut between my breasts, it was bleeding really hard and it hurted like hell, i glenched my fists, trying to hold in my painful screams, which came out in the form of tears. tears fell into the deep scar and ow, it burned.
"AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!" Tears fell even more. My father stood in front of me, his pants was open. He had tried to rape me, his own daughter!! But i had refused and scratched his cheek with my nails, he lost his nerves on me and grabbed a knife, cutting a deep and long scar between my breasts. Now i sat there covering my breasts, tears falling as i was twitching. He left the room, cursing of the scratch on his cheek. I was crying silent, i could barely breathe. I could get out a few words before i fainted in bloodloss.
"H-he could just.... G-go and... D-die....." I fell to the floor bleeding, before my eyes closed i could hear my mother scream loudly. My father murdered her.

~end of memory~

"..."
The man chuckled.
"I did as you wanted... He is dead now."
"... H-he was drunk!! H-he would never do that!!!" I protested with tears in my eyes.
"Tsk... You already wished for it to happen. now, i'll have to say goodbye! More people to kill!" He laughed evilly and disappeared into the night.
I sat in front of my dead father, his eyes staring up at the sky. I sniffled and closed his eyes with my hand, i wiped away tears, suddenly something burned on my chest, my eyes widened in shock and pain. "AAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!" I weakly fell onto the ground, twitching because of my pain. my eyes started to get blurry, and slowly i fainted. My chest part of my shirt, started to slowly turn red. the scar was bleeding again.

~Next morning~

I woke up, as i looked around i saw where i was and i remembered everything. The killer. My dead father. The pain in my chest. My eyes widened, i looked down at my chest, it was bloodred, i opened the buttons and looked at the scar, it was bleeding hard. How was this possible? I got the scar when i was 13 years old! It was 3 years ago! Last i looked at it, it was healed! Slowly i sat up, closing the buttons. I wasn't crying? Was i happy of my fathers death? After all, he tried to rape me when i was just a child.. But he was drunk that eavning, i never told him about the scar on my chest or that it was he who killed his own wife.. I have held a secret in three years. no one knows about it but me. I told everyone who asked that it was a killer, not 'it was my father'. I didn't want to separate from him. He was the only one i had left. Well.. That was then... Now i was completely parentless, and after i struggled limping to my home... ".. And now i am completely homeless too..."
The house was in flames, i fell onto my knees, staring at the fire.
"... I have no parents... I have no home.... I have nowhere to go.... What shall i do...?" I hid my face in my hands, holding in my tears. What was i supposed to do? No way i would go to an orphanhouse and live there til the fucking day i die! .... But what else could i do??
"There is nothing for me to live for anymore..."

"...... Youre wrong......"

My eyes widened, i looked quickly up at a behooded body, a human for my own luck, i stared at the person-
".. W-who are y-you...??"


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